AlmightyAirmayne - Soliloquy

I know the pain in my heart makes me feel like my life's been changin', this feeling's Surreal
Was I scared of somethin'? Was I scared of somethin'?
And I won't let go of this life that I live
Ambition will drive me, I know what to give
Yeah I know I want it bad, yeah I know I want it bad
You think you know me but you only see what's on the surface
I've only ever opened up when I wrote "What's My Purpose?"
I'm juggling emotions so my mind's been quite the circus
No it's not the end of me but fuck it dawg, close the curtains
People cut me off 'cause I quickly turned a new leaf but I did it for my own sake
Now watch it benefit me, yuh
I can't lie, I'm not the same guy
I'm tired of hearin' Almighty this, Almighty that, regurgitate the same lies
Yo I've had it with this shit, I need a moment to reflect 'cause I know if I don't, my closed Fist and your face will find a way to connect
That ain't no threat
I'm not goin' out in no blaze or no glory
I just wanna send a message to the people who've ignored me
Back when I was writin' metal, I thought that this shit would take off
Some drama happened, I was gone, it was hard to break off
It was me against them in a motherfuckin' face off but it wasn't worth it
I know all my hard work's gonna pay off
But there's one thing I can't shake and that's the fact that y'all never helped me when I Felt like I was in a rut because ya'll way too selfish
I said fuck it, comin' back to music after all these years made me realize that there's More to this life than sheddin' tears
This life is like a 6-speed, time to shift it into gear
My hopes and dreams were shattered like a fuckin' broken mirror
Now I'm growin' close with God so I have someone to revere
I called the priest and ask 'em to sit down and lend a fuckin' ear
Hello Father, I hope that my prayers reached you
When I'm feelin' lower than the ground, I got you to preach to
I know that I've sinned, please forgive me if I have been deceitful
In my darkest hours, darkest minutes, I got you to reach to
I fell down so hard that it took all my will to get up
Everyone that cared about me said "Almighty, keep your head up
Yeah, I can't lie, I never thought I'd make it here 'cause of everyone around me, I might Just shed a tear
I know the pain in my heart makes me feel like my life's been changing, this feeling's Surreal
Was I scared of something? Was I scared of something?
And I won't let go of this life that I live
Ambition will drive me, I know what to give
Yeah I know I want it bad, yeah I know I want it bad
I felt like I was movin' at a snail's pace, but in this world nothing's given on a golden Platter
I found out the hard way, pickin' up the pieces that had been shattered
I didn't need a shoulder to cry on, it was a private matter
Thought my life was a disaster
Thank God that I didn't give into my demons
I learned to navigate through Hell and back, can you believe it?
My therapist been sayin' "life's a bitch, now give it meaning so you can move on and Forget about the past that you've been fleeing"
So I let go of that weight on my shoulders, I felt relief
I felt the pain go away and I felt the willingness to speak against those who opposed me Or tried makin' me feel like I'm nothing
I'll set some fuckin' boundaries, ain't that really something?
Look at me now dad, your son is makin' moves, there ain't stoppin' him
I went from Special Ed to this, ain't the glow up so astonishing?
You say that you respect the hustle, well then why don't you acknowledge it?
Let me sway your mind like I'm in politics
I pray that someday I'll finally make it
I know it's been a long road, but I'm glad I'm here
I'm happy
I fell down so hard that it took all my will to get up
Everyone that cared about me said "Almighty, keep your head up
Yeah, I can't lie, I never thought I'd make it here 'cause of everyone around me, I might Just shed a tear
I know the pain in my heart makes me feel like my life's been changing, this feeling's Surreal
Was I scared of something? Was I scared of something?
And I won't let go of this life that I live
Ambition will drive me, I know what to give
Yeah I know I want it bad, yeah I know I want it bad
I know the pain in my heart makes me feel like my life's been changing, this feeling's Surreal
Was I scared of something? Was I scared of something?
And I won't let go of this life that I live
Ambition will drive me, I know what to give
Yeah I know I want it bad, yeah I know I want it bad
I know the pain in my heart makes me feel like my life's been changing, this feeling's Surreal
Was I scared of something? Was I scared of something?
And I won't let go of this life that I live
Ambition will drive me, I know what to give
Yeah I know I want it bad, yeah I know I want it bad

Written by:
Arman Zumberi

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