Jay Davis - Suppression

I lost my way when I was 15
I met a girl I thought I loved but we had mixed dreams
It let me down when I found out that's all a kiss means
Taught me a lesson how far women go to get things
They only want but they don't keep things
She'd be in heaven she could borrow and just exchange
New hair today, new nails tomorrow then they switch teams
She tells me everything she needs but she don't need me
I guess that's what they mamas taught em
Mine showed me religion and to live the way I oughta
Take care of my brother and don't let nobody cross em
Try to save my money even though I'm into flossing
Just wish she warned me bout depression
Wish she told me how anxiety could lead to stressing
Even in the dark still find a way to count my blessings
Even though I'm healthy just can't help but feeling lesser
They wanna call it a disorder
Trusting therapy like they can get my life in order
How can you tell me you understand just by recording
How I know I'm not another patient and a quarter
That's what I get for overthinking
There I go again just analyzing without breathing
Stuck inside my thoughts so I'm just staring and not blinking
Every step I take it's like the floor just starts to sink in
I lost my mind when I was 18
Jumped off the porch into the streets she couldn't save me
You couldn't have the time of day unless you paid me
And even then I had to weigh how much it made me
It wasn't safe you think I'm crazy
They in and out cause they knew I had something they need
We get it in then get it gone right in the same week
And that would work till a year later had a baby
How the fuck I'ma be father
Can't understand women so how I'ma raise a daughter
Can't protect my heart so how she supposed to know I got her
Promise her the world even though I'm not with her mama
Just wish I had more I could show her
Wish that I had more experience on how to mold her
All that I can do is give her love and watch her grow up
Endure all the pain so she won't ever have to know it
I pray that I can give her better
Better than what I was given she won't have to settle
No I can't teach everything but hopefully she gets it
Love can be distracting makes your foot fall off the pedal
I just pray I can break the cycle
Cause I got a bad habit getting loved and then recycled
That feeling that you get when she walks in its like excitement
But it changes when she starts to never mind it

Written by:
Jeremy Davis

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