VALSON - I Needed to Vent 7-15-23

I swear when you're the strong one
And you feel that weak moment when your mind gets the best of you
I was trying to figure out who to call - what to do
So I did what I do best and got in the booth
Today has been a day where I'm battling my old ways
Ready for a drink and a rerun of my hoe phase
Who am I to call? I don't really wanna feel inspired
I know I laugh a lot but truthfully I'm fucking tired
Everyday something new, I'm just trying to do better
Change my life for the better, get a feel of warmer weather
Cold in my soul, flip the light and no ones home
But right now that's probably best cause I feel safe when I'm alone
When I'm alone there's no one to entertain
Eating dinner with no one else's problems on my plate
And don't take that offensively - nah I'm just saying
I had a 20 minute drive and spent the whole time praying
For strength, for guidance, for peace and for protection
I stood there in the mirror just staring at my reflection
Confused cause what's the use of tryna hold it together
Anxiety is so heavy - my knees can't take the pressure
I'm sitting here in a library room writing these lyrics
Uncertain on if I really even want the world to hear it
And Jo is in my head saying think clear no clouds
Somehow I keep falling victim to my self-doubt
Like is it even worth it? Can I really make it happen?
I'm my own worst critic; all my personalities are laughing
Wait, let me get my head straight
I got business to handle and a future to create
And if I don't get it done, who the fuck gone take my place?
But right now I could really use a fucking getaway
I don't want no phone calls with sympathy or no questions
No further explaining, I hope you get the message
Releasing all of my demons on a beat as per usual
Understand that anybody is removable
I want somebody to tell me it'll be okay
The only one I'll believe is in a fucking grave
I mean an urn but you get what I was saying
I've been holding on tight but I'm running out of patience
It's hard to trust in people when motives change with the season
The second you think y'all locked in they turning without a reason
And yes I am the problem, cause ain't no fucking way
I would ever sit back and watch while you play in my face
I've been working hard on my mind so sometimes I walk away
So I don't get out my element - please give me my space
I said please give me my space, like a planet in between
The world ain't big enough I want the fucking galaxy
For real, that's how I feel and who gonna check me about it?
Jermain has simmered down but Valson - he a problem
I show up unannounced ready to lend a helping hand
But yet when it comes to me it's like y'all want to see me beg
You can shut the fuck up with that "closed mouths don't get fed"
I'll go back to top ramen 'fore I let you think I'm pressed
But thank you for your time, this was such a good event
Until I get what I desire I will never be content
Some days I'm closed off - today I need to vent
But on no day, on my worst day
You still can't see me on the field
For real

Written by:
Jermain Hardison

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