St.Courts, Jarrell Williams and CJ On The Track - Survivor's Guilt

My Survivor's Guilt deeply rooted in cbandonment
Facing Mental challenges
cs a child its damaging
Violence how it channel it
To handle it
Why i tell my neices and nephews
I love em every chance I get

Ion want them to think for second that I dont stand with them
When I was lil
I thought no one cared
So I aint care to live
Wilding with no guidance
Cause Nobody gave us manuscripts
In life I Learned to be to be Gangster
Fore was man in it.

They aint certified so
How the f*** they stamping s***
I really am step child problems Ima vanish em
Play with my kind it cant persist
Hit em up and I can not miss
He layed out coughing up blood
c site I cant forget

Begging for his life
In between them trees
Homie You played with my fam I give a f*** about your plea.

So if happen to a G,
Ion want nobody to cry for me
Murders carjacking, kidnapping and robberies
clot shit i cannot speak
Confessions if i got to deep
Nobody understood
cs they should
Why I dont sleep
Why I brace myself everytime I hear some tires screech
Right there on the side of me
Im thinking its my time to leave

Off this earth
Staring at a crew
"f*** you looking at? you all get murked"
Thought thats Gangster
Whole time I was just lost and hurt
Lotta work
Show im bezerk
Got nuts No drugs or alcohol, not a perc

I was proving
I wasnt none to mess with
Really was Depression disguised as aggression
Stopped crying for the way that I feel
Have you ever felt pain you couldnt put up in no tears

That How it is
Heart got colder
We just kids that wanna hear that we love but nobody told us
Somebody just be there to embrace us and console us
No hug
c cell was the only thatll hold us


Especially Ms.Betty left
When I couldn't see you,
You start asking rell where was at
If had my car you know Id been right with you
Car broke down when you die and I did too

Hugged Bug and let him know you forever in peace
I got Big mane and Bam so jjyou forever with me
They say im crazy
Od with responbility
Not being there when im needed
That shit be killing me
Im sorry I couldnt,
No way to heal the grief
They say it not my fault
But its gon live with me

Until my time is near,
That just how im built
Sorrow of survivors guilt.

Written by:
ADRIAN DRAKA, DARRYL WILLIAMS, ERNESTO GOMEZ, MOHAMED ABDELAZIZ

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