N.U.M.B. - Letter To My Former Self

A decade and a half, and I'm better than half a decade Went from student to teacher and then
became my own sensei And now I'm throwing glass stones inside
of a cave to watch them detonate Sitting here alone with the aftermath trying
to meditate Regulate a spectator and keep him in the distance
Efficiently finish him like what's left on the dishes
Explicitly vicious, my venom, leave him with the fishes
Officially witnessed swimmers that quivered final wishes
'Cause the bars that I delivered spitting acid got you tripping
Wondering if I'ma come through the window like I was slim

But now I'm meaner than that, now I'm eager to scrap
And I don't have to ride a curse because I'm gifted in rap
But fuck that, see me coming like the basics are back
If you're lost then you better go and ask Dora for a map
Bring an orange and then hoard it before the Four door Ford is back
Look at that, I'm still gonna make it with the target on my back

This is only the beginning, so don't be giving me pity
You weren't there when I was down, you only doubted me winning
You weren't around when I was out and I was roaming the city
You were up inside a house all nice and warm with a titty
That isn't sweet anymore, I heard that it's tough from the kitty
You only talk behind my back when you don't think I'ma hear it
Now I'm counting all the times I heard the thunder, but don't fear it
I'm only striking lightning twice in the same place if I'm near it

You better recognize we're wrecking eyes with an appearance
It's apparent I'm a parent, but it's time that I should air it
I got a son who lives less than 30 miles away
With a mom that let us meet, but only if I don't relay
All the facts about my life, how he has sisters by my name
Unnecessary drama was the phrase she chose to take
Said my daughters weren't his sisters, bitch that's DNA
Like the test you never even wanted me to fucking take
Now I'm looking at the picture like a clone of my own face
And I promise by the time that I'm laying inside my grave
My son'll get to know how much I loved him, why he's great
Why I've never gone a day without praying that he was safe

Written by:
Jeremy Berrellez

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