N.U.M.B. - Praying To A God

Hey mom, where you at now
You see your baby boy's all grown up
Keep on watching from a distance
That social media shit's getting old

I was looking for answers at the bottom of every bottle
Before I popped out the question, they answered it with a motto
Said I'd never make it if I live on the edge of my past
Now I'm hoping I can change it if I ever get the chance
You thought that I fell off when I just lost the motivation
Yeah, I said it before, but I found the path laid out with pavement
Now I'm back in my lane and I ain't returning to the basement
Born to be one of the greatest, something my father had stated
Something my mother reiterated every day
From the phone calls in her cell to the letters I heard her pray
To a God she don't believe in, but maybe her son he'd save
Little did she know it was me that would turn away
Now she's begging for forgiveness for the sacrifice she made
But I'll never give in again, I'ma take it to the grave
I've been begging for forgiveness for a decade and you strayed
Now I'm on my own alone with the family here that I made

And I'm praying to a God I don't believe in for the same
All in hope that he'd listen or take a message, but he didn't
I've been questioning why ever since you left me here to finish
By the end of my life I hope that I'm not the one who did it
Praying to a God I don't believe in for the same
All in hope that he'd listen or take a message, but he didn't
I've been questioning why ever since you left me here to finish
By the end of my life I hope that I'm not the one who did it

What we started when I was only a kid with a vision
First I asked you for the truth, now I'll dare you in the kitchen
That I turned into a booth when I was looking for a witness
If you count out the minutes you'd see I doubted my limits
Might have cut my chance in half, now I'll double it with stitches
The old me's dead and gone with life two simple incisions
I know I said it once before, now I'm the predator and victim
Cause I've been killing myself, if you'd listen then you would get it
Like the lies that you told about all the bands that you stole
When I was a kid on the run, I was trying to find my soul
I was homeless half a decade, you could check my receipts
Got a couple dozen spots, I know that I could go to sleep
Cause my thoughts are always haunting my conscience
I'm in a prism, not a prison
A vision that was twisted by my kin when I was little
Now if life's a bitch, I'll leave her in a couple ditches
Chopped up and screwed, feed her organs to the fishes

Praying to a God I don't believe in for the same
All in hope that he'd listen or take a message but he didn't
I've been questioning why ever since you left me here to finish
By the end of my life I hope that I'm not the one who did it
Praying to a God I don't believe in for the same
All in hope that he'd listen or take a message but he didn't
I've been questioning why ever since you left me here to finish
By the end of my life I hope that I'm not the one who did it

Written by:
Jeremy Berrellez

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