J.D. Kellar - Kurt Cobain

I don't know what to do man, I'm scared as fuck, I feel like my demons about to win man
Man, I got a lot of pain in my heart man, just hear me out on this one
Yeah, this might be the last song I ever write
Yeah, yeah, I've been sitting in this lonely house

Having dark conversations to myself
Wondering if I should live or die
Yeah, I'm really contemplating suicide
Like who's really gonna miss me

Lord, I pray you forgive me
Tell my son and my unborn child I love them
Now load the gun up, click clack bang, I'm going out like Kurt Cobain
I got a heart for sale, 23 years worth of miles

Road hard, hung up wet, it's not in the best shape but it hasn't stopped beating yet
It's been broken so many times but it's still full of love
The trust fluid is running low and it just needs a happy home
It's been good to me but it's time that I let it go

My brain and heart are having fits now my thoughts are in control
One thing saying blow your brain out
The other saying think about your son and the one you got on the way now
God, can you please lead the way

Please
'Cause I feel like I'm losing my way
I'm doing all I can but I'm just one man
I don't think these people really understand

I remember being homeless, I ain't no where to go
Jumping house to house, sleeping on a new couch
I grabbed a gun and wanted to blow my brain
But then I thought about my son and my child that's on the way

James Gunna Keller, I love you

Yeah, yeah, I've been sitting in this lonely house

Having dark conversations to myself
Wondering if I should live or die
Yeah, I'm really contemplating suicide
Like who's really gonna miss me

Lord, I pray you forgive me
Tell my son and my unborn child I love them
Now load the gun up, click clack bang, I'm going out like Kurt Cobain

Lord, I'm down on my knees

Want to talk some things out
If this relationship don't work I wanna throw in the towel
Been looking for a reason to blow my brain
They say gotta wait on God but I'm ready man

My heart's been damaged and I can't take it no more
Remember when I used a belt and I had woke up on the floor
I guess it wasn't strong enough
I'll do better next time

I'm just tired of all this drama
Bullshit tired of this life
And I know I should be strong
But I had enough and I'm tired of hanging on

So if you love me better love me now
You're either with me or against me
Ain't no way around
I just got a lot of things going through my head

I got this feeling that I'm about to be dead
I'm just tired of trying to turn this place into a happy home
Alone
Yeah, yeah, I've been sitting in this lonely house

Having dark conversations to myself
Wondering if I should live or die
Yeah, I'm really contemplating suicide
Like who's really gonna miss me

Lord, I pray you forgive me
Tell my son and my unborn child I love them
Now load the gun up, click clack bang, I'm going out like Kurt Cobain

Written by:
James Kellar

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