J.B. - Drowning

Gold walls that I built for you just to dig me out with silver spoons
No, I didn't, see it coming, oh
Gold walls that I'm stuck inside, I guess beauty sees what I can't find
I didn't, no I didn't see it coming
Well, I got your call, and I got your message
I want you to know that you are the love of my life, the love of my life
You never leave when the song is over, you ride or die till the end
You're the love of my life, you're the love of my life, my life

Can't escape my nightmare, can't get out of my suffering here
Even if I recover well, but I'll never rehab as well
As I fought the battle with a dark past, but I never kicked its ass
Everything keeps haunting me, and I don't know if I'll make it past
Life's a bitch, relationship, reminiscent about you and me
Thoughts possessed so I drink and wanna smoke weed, till I feel better emotionally
And I guess it's revenge for having a loose hold religiously
So, help me God to get through another year
Without having to fear of if I live another day here
Stuck in my mind, but I won't give up
And maybe I need to grow, blow up before I get my conscience
And before I make the right decision
Let me throw up my white flag, 'cause I will never surrender
Till my family becomes a sacrificial lamb of what I love and a product of
A crossfire against my enemies, oh please, I wanna make a living and a bag before I die
Just so I can leave a legacy behind, for my life, for my kids and wife
And even if I don't, at least I can say I tried, yeah

Gold walls that I built for you just to dig me out with silver spoons
No, I didn't, see it coming, oh
Gold walls that I'm stuck inside, I guess beauty sees what I can't find
I didn't, no I didn't see it coming
Well, I got your call, and I got your message
I want you to know that you are the love of my life, the love of my life
You never leave when the song is over, you ride or die till the end
You're the love of my life, you're the love of my life, my life

So I found my purpose, and I found my mission
Making rap a living, even if all I do is bitchin'
About how bad my life is, but I'm so subconscious thinking
That I thought so negatively, that I threw away my positives
And on this life that I think so badly of, but I wasted
The time and skills that I needed, to make it feel like paradise
But I played Snake Eyes and rolled the dice
And wasted my life like a cat with 9
Guys, I just noticed something
If you're not used to living an optimistic life, then you're missing out on the good parts
'Cause if you ain't living in the moment of life, whatcha doing?
Cruising? On a journey of life you'll never get again,
Cause you only live one time, and that's my objective
With every line and rhyme to make everyone feel purpose
And I don't want to sound sappy on purpose
When I reference this track with my others
And it's so fucking sad when all you ever have was a good life
But you have a mental illness

Didn't think I deserved shit, but I earned it
By working hard and overcame the odds of what I was bet against
So one last time, just give me a chance
Tryna work myself out this hole
And make a new path in life
So I can explain myself in a saga, trying to recapture the lightning in a bottle
I'm back

Written by:
Jacob Briggs

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