Rachela - She

I'm sitting with my friends here
Having a cold draft beer
Planned this weekend all year
Facials, mani, pedi
I'm in my brand new brassiere
Underneath my black sheer dress that I bought from downtown
Peaking over a mirror not a man
I think I'm prettier than them
Over confident
Shining while I dance
I'm out of my den
Then suddenly a bright beam of light terrified my eyes
Mesmerising smile
As she walked through the door
2 metres from the floor
She's everything and more
She took away the score
I gave myself
Suddenly I'm someone else
I don't recognise
Cos I want her smile
Will I ever see me like I see you
I don't ever wanna feel like I know you
But of course that's a lie
You're trapped in my mind
So all the efforts I made
To make myself feel great
Vanished like a boyfriend
Who took with him all my love
And now I'm back to square one
Self reflecting, no fun
Surrounded by everyone
Insecurities all over
Again and again
God I hate I'm not them
Where's the confidence
I boasted to my friends
Can't even pretend
I see the way they look at her
And the way she smirks
And the moment her hair falls perfectly
Oh why can't I be
Half of that beauty
I'm screaming jealousy
Mind, soul, & body
So suddenly
I'm sick of myself
I wanna be someone else
Will I ever see me like I see you
I don't ever wanna feel like I know you
But of course that's a lie
You're trapped in my mind
Will I ever like me like I like you
Honestly from head to toe I'd rather be you
And I'm afraid I'm not lying
Cos you're trapped in my mind
I'm sitting with my friends here
Planned this one night all year
I thought I made myself clear
I'll love myself without fear
And of course that's a lie
I live an insecure life
Will I ever see me like I see you
I don't ever wanna feel like I know you
But of course that's a lie
You're trapped in my mind
Will I ever see me like I see you
I don't ever wanna feel like I know you
When I close my eyes
I hope she hides

Written by:
Rachela Cruz

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