Avery Jade - July

What if I don't want to live anymore
What if I want to die

I'm falling deeper in this hole
I've dug for myself
I don't have any self-control
These things drag me
Farther and farther down
I punch my face
To feel like I am alive
I just don't see a reason
Why I should live

Is this a cry for help
Or is this a suicide

The guts on my legs
Will fade away someday
But the stains will always remain
I'm losing hope with
Every passing day
The sheets on my bed
Hold me down
When I look in the mirror
I see what I have left
This addiction is all that's there

I don't see the point anymore
I only seem to disappoint
I don't see the point anymore

This addiction is the only thing
That slowly keeps the pain away
It's made of all the things
I hate to take
The part of me
That I hate the most
It works its way inside of me
I can't take it anymore

You say it's just in my head
You say I'm strong enough

I'm breaking down
From all the abuse
The time slips
Like sand through a sieve
My hair has fallen out
I've aged fifty years
I was a young man
But now I'm a shadow of him
I can't stand to look at myself

I don't see the point anymore
I only seem to disappoint
I don't see the point anymore

Where has my life gone
I can't believe
This is where I am again

This is for all of you that care about me
I swear I want to live
The hardest part of being me
Is the part that wants to kill me
That tears me down
I promise I will find a way out

Written by:
Brian Becker

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