Stromboli Noodle - d.o. y.o.u. k.n.o.w. w.h.o. y.o.u. a.r.e?

It's been a few weeks since the last time I wrote a song
I needed time to gather my thoughts and
I'm still not really sure what to think but I don't know
Here goes nothing

Ayo
You said you needed time alone but is that really true?
Cause I've already seen you several times with someone new
And that makes me so motherfucking mad
But I'm really trying to not place my self-worth in what we had
But instead focus on what is imperishable
Cause otherwise my mood is too variable
Your love was like a drug and I ain't trying to relapse
I'm trying to re-up trying to keep even beat like these raps
Cause you treated me like a tv show you could put on pause
And walk away and do your thing and act like hey it'd be okay
With just sitting in the dark, like do you know what you are?
Or even what you want? I swear sometimes you enjoyed playing with my heart
Truth is I think you're a coward truth is I think you're a child
Truth is I think you were never ready you treated me like a
Trial run it was fun for a minute I admit that that is true
It was just me picturing playing all the love songs that I wrote for you
That's what this was or what it was supposed to be
You had me believing you were good, you were ready
But now you got me taking steps backwards
And when I look at you all I think about are bad words

I remember that time you thought I did call you something bad
But I would I would never ever do that
Like even right now I'm just venting
Know that I'm just trying to parse through everything that you've said to me
And everything that you're doing
Because honestly it just feels like you're constantly contradicting yourself
And that makes it hard for me to have closure
And I I felt like I was moving towards closure and I was healing properly and all
But with you switching up and going back on things you said
It just makes me feel confused and betrayed and tricked
And like all that processing I had done
You know but that's when I realized like you know we're done
You're not my girlfriend anymore so what you do shouldn't matter to me
But it's just rough because it looks like you've already moved on
And that's especially shocking considering all the things you said to me after we split
You know and like did you even process our relationship?
You know I mean I had to talk about it with my sister, my brothers, my parents, my friends of all kinds
My therapist
Like I had to put a whole freaking team together
And I don't know
The fact that you have moved on so quickly is kind of shocking to me
So I don't know
Like are you good?

(I won't lie)
Hurts me you were hurting
And you never let me know
I wish you would've told me
I could've helped shoulder the load
I kinda wanna ask if you miss me
But I'm afraid of the answer
I know you don't really care for me
At least not in the same manner
But what do you even tell your friends?
Cause I was the best I could've been
Our demise was your fault
Your immaturity the cause
You didn't even know what you wanted
And yet you still drew me in
I was stuck in your web
Not trying to get stuck again
And you better correct that shit
Before you drag another person in
Cause that's so motherfucking selfish
If you ain't ready and he is
Like what do you want? Stop telling me lies
You were never forthright okay I guess that is fine
But I'm drowning in my tears I never learned how to swim
I'll try to keep my mouth shut and just take it on the chin

But that's difficult to be honest
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

Written by:
Stromboli Noodle

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