Alfred Pan - Hanging On

I been running and trynna get back to the love we had
But everytime you tell me you love me, it's hurtin bad
And everytime I tell you I need you, you runnin back
Yo, how you playing these games and leave me just hurtin' bad?
Everytime you tell me you want me, it feel like games are played
And I'm not trinna play no games, you say I'm so unfazed
Well, how i'm playing games if you always run away?
I need you baby girl, I really need you here today
No one understands me
No one cares enough to reach out
But how can I love someone
If I can't even love myself
You left me, I'm empty
Not an explanation, nothing
I'm the kind of broken you can't repair (Can't Fix Me)
So please don't tell people what you think about me
Can't afford no more enemies
I just wanting healing and peace
Please don't break my heart for a second reason
I'm catching up on no sleep
Losing hope to stay strong
The loose ends are splitting
The voices in my head
Are getting loud
Can't shut em' out
No, I'm barely hanging on
My therapist tells me
Start over it's easy
I'm growing small
It's too much
No, I'm barely hanging on
You say this love is full of infatuation, feelin like
The love we had, I'm giving it back and now we crawlin' back
But why we always runnin' it back, if I can't have it back?
You say you had my back, then you stabbed it
Yo, what's up with that?
I'm giving you love, I'm giving you heart, I wanted a wedding ring
You threw it away, you threw it away, and now I'm left with pain
You threw it away, you threw it away, and now I'm left with pain
Yeah...
Too much, Im stressed out
Don't drink but alcohol numbs
Most nights it gets me
Knocked out on the kitchen floor
We shared our friendships
Now all I've got is fake friends
Nobody wants me now i'm difficult
I'm so scared to die alone with no one watching
I miss your company
It was all that I need
Please don't come back and rub it in my face when
You have found what you need (what you need)
Losing hope to stay strong
The loose ends are splitting
The voices in my head
Are getting loud
Can't shut em' out
No, I'm barely hanging on
My therapist tells me
Start over it's easy
I'm growing small
It's too much
No, I'm barely hanging on
They say it's inconsistencies
They sing it on the melody
I know just where I wanna be
I know just who I wanna be
Your love is on a pedigree that they could never ever be
I'm trynna take you places
To the islands that you never been
I'm trinna love you harder than them dudes could ever ever love
You say you wanted love, but then you left me for another love
How that making sense?
You trynna treat me like another scrub
I'ma love you better, I said better than they ever could
But now you're friends talking down on me like they know me
But they don't remember all the times when you would call me lonely
Talking about, oh my god, my friends they treat me phony
And I'd tell you, pick your head up, girl you so godly
Trynna show you love and give you flowers on the daily
Trynna show you love cus baby girl you're so amazing
Trynna show you love cus you're the one I wanna stay with
Trynna show you love cus you're the one that God put me with

Written by:
Alfred Pan

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