Jacq - Behind The Smile

It's been a month or two
Since I've felt out of place
I thought I'd feel better with you
But I hide behind
The smile on my face
I feel my friends don't want me around
Because of what I do and say
They never express that feeling
But I still believe they hate me either way
Don't you underestimate
The feelings I have felt today
You might think I'm doing fine
Believe me when I say I'm alright
But behind the smile you'll find
The chaos roaming in my mind
All I want is to feel whole
It's exhausting playing this role
I thought I would be fine but now you know
I'm starting to lose all control
All I really do is lay around
And find myself in constant doubt
If I am a good person
Now I'm completely freaking out
How do people live
With all their lies and all the pain
Maybe I'm reading too much into the lines
But the guilt grows more everyday
Don't you underestimate
Don't you understand I'm not okay
You might think I'm doing fine
Believe me when I say I'm alright
But behind the smile you'll find
The chaos roaming in my mind
All I want is to feel whole
It's exhausting playing this role
I thought I would be fine but now you know
I'm starting to lose all control
My past decisions keep on haunting me
Am I crazy?
Do you hate me?
I can't remember how to breathe
I've lost sleep completely
Can you save me?
My past decisions keep on haunting me
Am I crazy?
Do you hate me?
I can't remember how to breathe
I've lost sleep completely
Can you save me?
My past decisions keep on haunting me
Am I crazy?
Do you hate me?
I can't remember how to breathe
I've lost sleep completely
Please come save me
(Please come save me)
(Please come save me)
You might think I'm doing fine
Believe me when I say I'm alright
But behind the smile you'll find
The chaos roaming in my mind
All I want is to feel whole
It's exhausting playing this role
I thought I would be fine but now you know
I'm starting to lose all control
You might think I'm doing fine
Believe me when I say I'm alright
But behind the smile you'll find
The chaos roaming in my mind
All I want is to feel whole
It's exhausting playing this role
I thought I would be fine but now you know
I'm starting to lose all control

Written by:
Jacquel Aguila, Jouzniel Aguila

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