Jinari Kemet - The Life You Made

The big bad wolf's back in the business
Had to take a little break for me to get back into fitness
I'm sad if you missed it
Honestly I've had it with stigmas
Niggas loved the Black Jacket so I'm glad I was vicious
All that I heard was the sounds of my critics
Every word made my howling implicit
Keeping my verbs and my nouns efficient
My self worth hit the ground and I'm feelin
A little disturbed a little bit down with the sickness, fuck it mask on
The fucking mad dog's tired as shit
Tryna shoulder all the weight that I was dying to lift
My approach was hit the gas like I was driving a whip
But all that smoking shit don't last and being high ain't a fix, for me
I sat the bowl down to think for a minute
Plateaued now I'm leaning on gimmicks
I'm exposed but I'm reaching my limit
I'm a loner but I'm seeking commitment like
Could you give me advice? Like
Where the fuck they do that at
Where the fuck they do that at
Nigga where the fuck they do that at
Now everybody saying, let love happen on it's own
Don't worry about the chase go find your happiness alone
I'm trying to make a plan for a future that's unknown
So am I wasting time, swiping pictures on my phone
Cause every now and then, I might get lucky
I know at least she don't think that I'm ugly
We get to texting back and forth and then it's turned into a daily thing
Then she came over made me dinner and I payed for drinks
Fast forward, the chemistry was there like no other
We both like watching anime and hugging under covers
We like each other's friends and we met each other's mothers
It's been some months now do I tell her that I love her
Well fuck it I ain't got nothing to lose and
She ain't gotta say it back I'm just speaking my truth
She said I'm happy that you told me cause I'm feeling the same
But next month I'll be moving to away, like
Where the fuck they do that at
Nigga where the fuck they do that at
Like where the fuck they do that at
She said I want to make it work but we gon' need a plan
To maintain this long distance thing if we can
You'll get no pressure from me I would never force your hand
But this degree is worth me leaving I hope you understand
This woman damn near perfect
And I'm just sitting here debating with myself like
Man is it worth it? My biggest struggle is I can't take risks
But at the same time regretting opportunities missed like who
Does that I know where the loves at
Maybe I should pack my bags and leave and never come back
Maybe I should crawl before I run like I'm a Rugrat
Maybe I'm exhausted to the point they think my lungs black
Maybe I been alone for so long a crumb of potential
Made me psych myself out, maybe the problem is mental
Take a chance on one dream and miss out on another
Fuck it, let me go and hit up my brother
Because he moved to New York without a dollar tryna make it in movies
Now he on the big screen and got a show that he shooting
Still a father and a teacher plus he got into music
I called him up asked him how does he do it
He said it all comes down to my faith
But I know that really ain't your way
I don't wanna get into that debate but don't
Give up on this life that you made for a chick out of state
Cause she like anime? Nigga where the fuck they

Written by:
Kemet Ojo

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