Ivory Rasmus - What I've Become

I used to punish myself for existing
Thought friends were waiting on the day I went missing
I pushed them back with my thoughts
Convinced that I was hated
I just reaped what i sought
Imagined anger in jokes
So every time they poked
I shot back unprovoked
It's not the way that I am
But that's what self hatred can do to a man
Let alone a man who doesn't wanna be one
Let alone a kid who thinks their life lacks reason
Let alone a loner losing all his day ones
Every day I wake up
And rue what I have become

Written by:
Mason Gilbert

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