Coop513 - Better dead

I can hardly go another day through all this pain
Every other day it's like it's like fight up in my brain
My heart is devastated decorate it like a grave
My spirit heavy lately lotta extra weight
I'm at war with myself lately everyday is a struggle
It's a struggle getting out of bed I gotta go and hustle
Gotta hustle get up out my head it's way too much to fumble
Having thoughts I'm better dead I feel lately I'm in trouble

Shit I'm going crazy lately all up in my head
Self medicating fuck these shady and doctors and they meds
Contemplating sitituations got my mind on edge
And I don't trust nobody lately to save me off the ledge
I swear that shit that's going on it's really got me puzzled
I the shit that I've going for me now why am I still struggling
Why every time i get life rolling I've chosen self destruction
And the ones closest to me I push em away but I still love em
I've always thug it out it's always been my only route
Always gotta make moves count tryna go the holy route
Too many demons in my head they got a lot fight about
In there screaming got me fed up bout to go and run em out

I can hardly go another day through all this pain
Every other day it's like it's like fight up in my brain
My heart is devastated decorate it like a grave
My spirit heavy lately lotta extra weight
I'm at war with myself lately everyday is a struggle
It's a struggle getting out of bed I gotta go and hustle
Gotta hustle get up out my head it's way too much to fumble
Having thoughts I'm better dead I feel lately I'm in trouble

All this pain I have to take it , shit is deabilitating
Roll and smoke my medication grab a pad a pen and paper
Sit and get to illustrating mental state been fading lately
Feeling like mental patient pacing cuz my mind keeps racing
Sometimes I feel I ain't done enough then I feel done too much
It's really hard to open up I really don't know who to trust
Talking to a therapist I know that bitch she think I'm nuts
I ain't trusting shady medication bitch I'll smoke a blunt
When I be going through it I just have to ask myself
What the fuck have I been doing should I go and blast myself
Feeling like I'm fucking losing I don't never ask for help
All the shit I'm doing bitch I'm hardest on myself

I can hardly go another day through all this pain
Every other day it's like it's like fight up in my brain
My heart is devastated decorate it like a grave
My spirit heavy lately lotta extra weight
I'm at war with myself lately everyday is a struggle
It's a struggle getting out of bed I gotta go and hustle
Gotta hustle get up out my head it's way too much to fumble
Having thoughts I'm better dead I feel lately I'm in trouble

Written by:
Scott Cooper

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