Ian Matta - Still Lovers (Demo)

How many times do you think I'll
Crawl back into your arms after you've dropped
And left my heart like broken clocks?
How many times will it take us
To realize that we've misused
The time we had before we knew
We're not good for each other?
Left us with nothing but wondering
What could have been if we tried harder?
Would it have worked wonders?
We'd look back at it laughing
'Cause in the end we're still lovers
How many times will it take me
To walk away before you hit
With harsher words, maybe your fist?
But what would I do? It's me and you
It wouldn't take away the blue
It's been enough, and we've been through this
We're not good in the long end
Left me with nothing but wondering
What could have been if I wasn't stronger?
Would I see the sky's bluest?
Would I feel safe holding your hand?
But by the end, we won't be lovers
'Cause I deserve way better than the learning that you need
Why should I sit here thinking, "is it better if I leave?"
Well, I wanna do this kindly and not hurt you anymore
But by doing it that way I've left myself back at the door
And I deserve much better than the yelling and the screams
Than the wandering, busy feeling of not being enough, baby
'Cause I let myself down time and time again, there's no respect for me
How would I demand loving when my own's not genuine?
And I deserve way better than the crying myself to sleep
Than the standing in the mirror hating every inch I see
How will I preach for self-love when I let these things happen to me?
If I don't stand up for myself, you would stand on top of me
And I know I deserve so much better than the bullshit that you did
With that fucking little lie saying you "love" me, then you cheat!
I've been nothing but a fool forgiving you for all of this
All the pictures and your fixtures they will haunt you in your sleep
'Cause I deserve (I deserve, I deserve)
I deserve better
'Cause I deserve (I deserve, I deserve)
I deserve better
Yes, I deserve (I deserve, I deserve)
I deserve better
And you deserve (I deserve, I deserve)
Better
How many times has it taken me
To realize I'm all that I need
And it's better like this

Written by:
Ian Matta

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