void prophecy - I LOVED YOU ONCE

I loved you once
It's funny to think it's a past tense now
To think you were my idol
I know, idolatry is a sin
But i think it's important to note
All my life, i thought it was all you
Everything i knew in the beginning
All the building blocks that eventually made me
It was all you

The root of my well-meaning manners
A beacon of useful advice
That pillar of discipline
The spark of my talent
The match that set me aflame
It was all you
But was it really?

I got almost everything i wanted
I was handed everything
I had it easy
I rarely had to lift a finger
I had a great life on paper
And that's all that matters to you
What's on that paper
My paper

What about the things that can't be formed into words
Or all the bullet points you erased
Everything you don't think fits on that paper
Actually makes it whole

All the arguments you kept from me
Those threats you made
Those character flaws
Your unconventional vices
Your addictions and your excuses for them
Those are all you too

And no matter how much running, smoking, praying,
Manifesting, or preaching you practice,
You can't outrun your past
It's still you

I loved you once
I'd like to think i still do
But you make it very hard to

I know it's not you
And- so i don't
I know you're gone
I can't love you if you're not here
But i would rather never see your face again
Because in the end,
It's not you that i loved

Written by:
Caleb Eaves

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