Son One - Sontember (Carlys Song)

All this talking, I can barely hear myself think
Conversating with the devil, doubled over the sink
I can't hold it down forever, see this shit is insane
I run the paint, sipping codeine just to pass the pain
I pass away into my mind a couple times a day
I miss my girl, but I ain't tell her, so I'm feeling fake
This one's for Carly, wish I would've told you what I wanted
Now I just want you here beside me, but you're in your coffin
Ain't answer often, I've been distanced by my own desires
My own emotions still don't wonder why I kept denying
I should've picked up and answered those texts
But you was in a different state and I had rope round my neck
My mind is a mess, and if I had a nine I'd take her ass to bed
And tuck her in before she blows and ends this life I live
A couple dollars got me stressing like I'm in the water
Without a boat just floating hopelessly beside my soul
I watched it fade away to grey like it ain't matter much
And came back with a vengeance for some blood and independence
With a little bit of pride to set aside with what we have and haven't got
The times are simple, but they feeling kind of rough
Sick of calling all the bluffs, I'm rolling blunts to keep me up
Double barrel to my lips like I might Kurt with the pump
I prayed for the sun, but only got rain
Now tell me why God gotta cry when I'm just trying to rid the pain
See how I shoulder the cold, I'm breaking out of the mold
And sacrificing what I got to get the show on the road
I'm here for the gold, and give me my $200 cause I just passed go
Don't know how I survived this boardwalk with this price on my dome
I'm walking home, dumb stoned like I'm Cheech and I'm Chong
I got the cleanest of thumbs, but still the cat got my tongue
I'm trying to tell you what I'm feeling, but I can't find the words
Can't find a reason to explain it even if it really hurts
See I'm riding down the avenue inside another hearse
Trying to find a life without you, but I'm kicking in the dirt
Rocks flying from the ground, I'm in the courtyard
Stomping outta line to find a reason why the voices steady talking to me
The son of sam without a plan of taking over feeling
Like I might end it with my brains on the sofa
The realest couldn't even feel this if I bumped it in braille
Think I could give a fuck if you could understand it
I could really give a fuck, it ain't for you to understand
I've been the illest and I'm voicing my opinions
To settle the scene of sinning
Sitting single file, ready to get dismissed
I'm bringing what I got and what you missed
I got a blunt to my lips, young Duke Nukem
When I walk in this bitch
I got some demons that been talking and they pleading the fifth
I ain't the one so fuck around and find out
I ain't the one to find out
I'd hate for none to find out
I'd hate for none to fall out

Written by:
Jackson McLeer

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