Ellen O'Meara - Start again

I woke up today and remembered it was over
The world still went on, but that didn't give me closure
Cause I still feel lost without your direction
They say time heals all, but what if I'm the one exception
And I know what a narcissistic thought to have
But my God, some days I just feel so sad
And I don't know if it will ever end
I wish I could start my life over again
I wish I could start my life over again
Well, in the meantime I'll just keep myself busy
Go out with my friends and I'll drink till I'm dizzy
Then I'll cut my hair for a semblance of control
And cry in the mirror when it doesn't fill the hole
I will drunk text an ex for some shallow validation
We'll have terrible sex, but I'll moan like it's amazing
And I'll tell everyone that I feel so liberated
Then go home and pray to be permanently sedated
I wish I could start that night over again
I wish I could start that night over again
And I will starve my body to fit teenage clothes
Cause everybody loves me when I don't eat
So I'll be the perfect girl for this society
A young, dumb, skinny beauty queen
It's the best thing that a girl can be
A young, dumb, skinny beauty queen
I wanna run into the open seas and scream at the top of my lungs
Help me, I wanna drown my body beneath the waves
I wanna go fucking feral almost every single day
I wanna be okay, I wanna be okay, I wanna be okay.
I wish I could start my life over again
I wish I could start again.

Written by:
Ellen O'Meara

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