B.L.U.T.E. - SINNER

Dear Father God, I apologize for everything that I say and do
I apologize for questioning you and I apologize for not understanding
But please, oh God, understand that I am a man and I just want to understand everything that you give me
Understand that this is not just for the song, but it is for me
May you protect me and be my king in my life
Amen

So what the fuck is salvation
Feel like heaven's really just a myth that I was told so I would get my act together
Hopefully I never sever my connection to the holy pleasures
Cause I understand the shit I ask is wrong
Please don't cast me out or see me as some type of traitor
I'm just tryna make a way for both of us to get along
I don't wanna think of Father God as another fucking deadbeat
because I'm way too scared to make it home
Like why my demons roam around
Why you make me like this
Questioning is my nature and you knew that I would write this
I can't follow your halo cause the light is way too blinding
You know I need to see to believe that you really righteous
Why you create all of us if you knew what we would do
Why you make me just to burn me?
I feel like that's evil

I don't mean the disrespect, I'm really doing what I can
I understand you God and I'm an insect of a man
But can you please state your plan
So I know just what to fight for
Help me build a new soul
One with a light glow
Cause right now I'm just drowning and I'm feeling like I might go crazy
If I'm your son, give me a sign that my dad's here daily
Cause right now I ain't got a pops
I would probably pop my pops
Why this anger make me roll around like it'll never stop
I'll never understand why the fuck you made my pops
For the shit he did to my mother
Fuck him till he drops

So why you make me a burden
Really what's my purpose
Pastors really preaching but ain't following they sermons
That just makes me nervous
Cause if following prophets leads to light
why the darkness in them shining so bright
Tell me what's the way
Cause I feel like I'm losing myself every day
And I understand that I'm not okay but

Tell me
So I'm supposed to trust this old book
Written by some old folks
Words changed by old crooks
Words lost in old strokes
This ain't putting faith in you, this is putting faith in man
Sinners who would change your words for money like the hay I can
How am I supposed to know what's real if you won't speak up
Why you create science if you knew what it would teach us
Why are those in churches who are supposed to share your word
the first one judging like my life is so perverse
Please tell me what's your word
Can you tell me what the fuck is salvation
Is my life worth saving
Sorry if I angered you whenever I stopped praying

I'm hoping that you understand when all these feelings weigh in
The weight of all this waiting is what brought me all this hatred
Like why is all the love I get conditional
Why are my dreams fictional
Why you make my homie Braxton pain way too critical
I know I shouldn't ask you all these questions
We don't talk too much and I might just do what I'm guessing
Like why does everything just come back to you

If I'm your son, that makes me the devil's brother too
Like why you create big bro if you knew you'd rebel
Why you have Michael reap his brother's wings all by himself
I just don't understand all the things you made happen
I just want a father who would explain some of his actions
Eric's dad told me this ain't for me to know
I shall follow in your halo
Show me salvation
Show me salvation
Show me salvation
Show me salvation
Show me salvation
Show me salvation
Show me salvation
Show me salvation
Show me salvation

Written by:
Ashden Hayden

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