TipToes - Lost

I was 15, living with some big dreams
Grew up in a small town, never in the city
Walking into class, ain't nobody sitting with me
Always on my own, that's the way that I was living
Writing every night, tunnel vision all I did see
Had a dream in mind, wouldn't ever picture quitting
Everybody would laugh, bringing out the anger in me
No one took me seriously, nobody was listening
They didn't understand the way the music reaches deep
Into the the person I've become to ease the pain inside my head
'Member how that feeling stayed persistent every night I was alive
So I would slit my wrist while wishing I were dead
Diving into music was the only thing that kept me sane
Throughout those days when life would hold a knife up to my throat
But I then became so powerful the moment that I realized
That I didn't need nobody, I could do it on my own, I need a moment to myself
Just leave me all alone, if they ask I'm doing well
Don't tell me that you're with me, I don't want your help
Suppressing my emotions, keep them to myself
Doesn't matter how I feel or how I felt
Cos you don't care, no one does, I've learned that now
And you weren't there, I'm quiet but these words come loud
Yeah I'm proud but I'm not satisfied, seen before the black and white
I've pondered of a life without the music, and I'd rather die
And yo I thank god
He helped me turn this pain into a great cause
And I'd be lying if i said I could've done it on my own
Demonstrating how to persevere through rainfall
I never once implied that all the pains gone
It stays strong, and it's crushing when the weights falls
When I can barely see a thing inside the gray fog
It's so cold, someone tell why I stay lost
The labyrinth's not consistent
A pattern alway missing
My feelings locked in prison
Not a single soul would listen
And nothings changed
Maybe there's no way out
Still, nothings changed
Why am I still so lost now?
They think my hearts a weapon
A common misconception
I've looked to my reflection
Tried unfolding all these questions
But nothings changed
Maybe there's no way out
Still, nothings changed
Why am I still so lost now?
Years of the torture without any change
Let people in but they never remained
Opened my heart up to then be reminded
The reason I kept it restrained in the cage
Hard on myself cos I need to improve
Born as a misfit, but making some room
Push myself harder than any of you
There ain't nobody working as much as I do
Work until I am dead or until I'm alive
Limited options, I have to survive
So many goals that will stack in my mind
Will I achieve them? I'll happen to try
Tenacity is vital living on a tightrope
Looked into the mirror, found that I'm my only rival
I remember nights when I was feeling suicidal
I've given all I have, someone tell me why I'm still lost
Yeah, why am I still lost?
Lost

Written by:
Gabriel Rader

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