Daphne Eckman - improvement

Is it enough to say I'm sorry
Cuz I don't have the energy
To dissect all parts of me
Said I didn't like the way he
Drank till he got angry
Making snide remarks until
His friends got him home safely
And now i'm drinking something pink
And crinkling my eyelids
All my friends are talking 'bout their weekend in the islands
I'm watching them just bubbling and I'm overanalyzing
What the hell is wrong with me
If they could see what I could see
They'd know I don't mean anything I say
I just want you and me to be okay
A pendulum that's swinging just one way
Blame it on where my natal moon was placed
Do I make you want to drive me away?
I'm not moving
Until you tell me what went wrong
If I'm improving
I never thought that it would take so long
I'm good at holding secret grudges
Apologizing on the phone forgetting next to nothing
At some point something shifted and
It's me that's up to something
I don't like when you're mad at me
And I think you probably should not be
But now it's my fault that we're not okay
A pendulum that's swinging just one way
If I'm a baby please don't throw it in my face
And I hate you but I hate that you're in pain
I can see how all this would drive you away
I'm not moving
Until you tell me what went wrong
If I'm improving
Then why's it have to take so goddamn long?
I've been stewing
Like a cynic that can't see her own mistakes
I'm not losing
But is it winning to refuse to accept my fate?
Accept my fate
Woooooooooaoo ohhh
Now I'm growing up
Now I'm an adult like you
Now we're getting somewhere
Now I have a foolproof excuse
To go back to your place
Throwing up on my shoes
I won't accept that it's over in fact I fucking refuse
So is it enough to say I'm sorry?

Written by:
Daphne Eckman

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