MVP Yoshua - Pain

Living a lie for so long
I feel so wrong
I'm not myself
I've been so gone
House ain't no home
I'm not so strong
Holding this in
I can't hold on
Nights I don't sleep
I feel lonely
So many days
Days I won't eat
Tears y'all don't see
I just want peace
Dealing with pain
Pain that don't leave

I've been weak and I've broken
But never showed it
Makeup on my bruises that's just the unspoken
I been feeling clueless I been losing focus
I don't know what to do and I hope she doesn't notice
Lord knows you can look in my eyes see what I'm facing
That's why I look around and down in the conversations
I decide to hide cause I cried from the complications
They told me keep my eyes on the prize and I thought of Jason
Momma say you gotta trust that process
Praying for a life where I feel I'm blessed
Life eating me alive and it won't digest
Satan working overtime and that's my guess
I feel like I'm targeted
Everybody's a part of it
Cause everybody showing they true colors that's the art of it
Lately I ain't been feeling loved ain't no heart in this
I knew from the jump I shouldn't have started it

Living a lie for so long
I feel so wrong
I'm not myself
I've been so gone
House ain't no home
I'm not so strong
Holding this in
I can't hold on
Nights I don't sleep
I feel lonely
So many days
Days I won't eat
Tears y'all don't see
I just want peace
Dealing with pain
Pain that don't leave

I think it's time to bite the bullet
Tryna bottle up everything that's what I'm good at
I told myself I would try I knew I wouldn't
Runaway and start a new life I know s houldn't
What should I do I need advice and all
This can't be life cause this ain't nice at all
Demons turning our fights to brawls
Smile during the day but at night I ball
Hennessy and redbull got me in so much trouble
Miss 100 percent of shots you don't take
So I take double
Situation got my hands tied when I'm tryna jungle
Bring peace back in my life and solve the puzzle

I'll admit it that I cry sometimes (I Cry)
I'll admit it that I've been so blind (Been so blind)
I'll admit it that I crossed the line (I crossed the line)
Hate to admit it but it crossed my mind
I know these conversations is making you thinking less of me
Respect trust love and loyalty is the recipe
You can say what you want it's a necessity
You only see the fresher me when life getting the best of me
Look good feel good
That's what they say
My brother promised everything gon' be okay ay
Through the valley you gotta walk through it brave
My daddy told me don't let that stand in your way ay

Living a lie for so long
I feel so wrong
I'm not myself
I've been so gone
House ain't no home
I'm not so strong
Holding this in
I can't hold on
Nights I don't sleep
I feel lonely
So many days
Days I won't eat
Tears y'all don't see
I just want peace
Dealing with pain
Pain that don't leave

I'ma keep running even though my ankles broke
Ima keep punching even though my back against the ropes
Ima keep trucking even though it ain't no road
And I'm keep hunting while I aim for hope
Ima keep running while my ankles broke
Ima keep punching while my back against the ropes
I'ma keep trucking when it ain't no road
Cause ima keep hunting while I aim for hope

Written by:
Joshua Arnold

Publisher:
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid

Lyrics powered by Lyric Find