Freelan - Back to Me (Be Happy)

I feel like my depression's comin back to me
No matter what I try it starts to grab at me
I'm losing all my patience and I'm always feeling anxious
But no matter what I do it keeps attacking me
These demons in my head they yellin blasphemy
I'm prayin they ain't close enough to capture me
But every single day it's like my heart is filled with anger
I been praying God why don't you come rapture me
My insecurities are putting up a fight
Sometimes I feel like I can barely make it through the night
Cause I won't ever sleep I'll always lie in bed til three
And so I pray to God for peace and then He tells me it's gon be alright
I'm prayin and I'm askin God why
Cause He's the only one that designed this life
Like why'd He put me on this earth so I could deal with all this hurt
When everyday it's all the same and yet I still wanna die
But there's a reason that you're on this planet
You got the peace that passes understanding
You got a lotta potential don't let the devil flood your mental
With an idea that you cannot grasp it
If it wasn't meant to be it wouldn't have been
That's the reason He made all these things happen
Depression, anger, this sinful nature
I pray that people hear me prosper when I'm on this mic rappin
But
It's hard to live when you dead inside
I saw my dad and I can barely look him in the eyes
Sometime I feel like he don't want me in his life
Because he doesn't like my music, it's the only time I feel alive
So I put on this mask and then I hide
Maybe if I wear a badge he'll let this one slide
Same goes for my older brother he's growing cold
Now I really know the true meaning of Rap or Die

And so I keep walk-in on
I got a lotta life to live and people to prove wrong
I'm prayin one day all my pain is gone and so I turn to God and pray He keeps me strong
But He's already done so much
And so I say it proudly In God I Trust
Living without him I'd be downhill like my brakes are cut
With no hope for help over the cliff I'd jump
But
God is not a quitter nor am I
He gave me two legs imma stand and fight
And with the ammo He's givin me I don't brandish knives
I'm tryinna change the world I pray I save some lives
Cause
I know what it's like to feel alone
Before I met God nowhere felt like home
I used to lay up on my roof the only place to go
Cause I could watch the stars and I would feel like I'm home
But
Now I feel the energy's shifted
Cause everywhere I go they tell me mind your business
What happened to my friendships what happened to forgiveness
Why I feel like I'm begging for attention like it's expensive
I don't know
I just pray that they feel me
I pray when I drop this track that they really do hear me
Cause it's feels like everybody always tryinna steer clear of me
You can try to hide the truth but you've just made it clear to me
Damn
I'm searching for a place to be
I'm certain I can find the real me
I'm done dealin with the make believe
I'm tryinna walk my path and get back to me
I said
I'm searching for a place to be
I'm certain I can find the real me
I'm done dealin with the make believe
I'm tryinna walk my path and get back to me
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Written by:
Stephen Freeman

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