B.A.H.A. - Breathe

Breathe
Trying to steady my breathing
But I can't shake the feeling that I've lost the meaning
To the purpose of my so called life and I don't why.
I'm trying to figure it out, but I am just a guy
In the world trying to do better
But the longer that I'm on this Earth, I tend to get more bitter
Trying to find happiness
So I'll always be stress
Surrounded by the mess
That I've made inside my head. Time to clean it out
But most of these days, I just wanna scream and shout
Breathe in
Breathe out
And Breathe
Trying to stay calm
But you can already tell by the shaking of my palm
That I can't take it no more. That I'm about to explode
That Imma crack under the pressure while I carry the load
That I'm trying to lift over my shoulder
It's a boulder
And it seems to get heavier every year I grow older
I don't know how much longer I can take from this
Cause whenever I think it's steady, the balance shift
So my mind is split, straight down the middle
It's getting harder to tell between good and evil
Cause Am I a good guy in this evil world
Or are my evil thoughts destroying what's left of my soul?
And I can't take it no more
So I'm locking up my door while I'm lying on the floor
Breathe in
Breathe out
And breathe
Trying to stay focused
Hoping nobody will notice
That I have zero clue on what I should do
In this game called life cause there are no rules
So I'm thrown in the deep end without a way to defend
My mind against these psychological defects
That have been me with since my day of birth
And it feels each day, it's only getting worse
So I
(Breathe in)
Take a deep breath
As I'm
(Breathe out)
Hoping this helps
Cause I don't really want to bother my father or my mother
Cause they got their own problems. I don't wanna add another
Cause I don't want to be a burden, so I'll keep it to myself
Knowing full well that this isn't good for my health
Mentally cause whenever I do try to break free
It seems these issues get a tighter grip on me
Screaming out to God, "Why'd you make this mistake?!"
Praying someday soon it's get taken away
Breathe in
Breathe out
And Breathe
Trying to keep it within
So I fake out a grin before the morning begins
But it seems to take a toll
Everyday on my soul
Sometimes gotten to the point where I've lost control
Of all my emotions, causing quite a commotion
Making my self doubt become even more potent
So now I've become my biggest foe
Even though I tried to play the superhero
Trying to be like Cap. Being more like Hank Pym
In the background, thinking why I can't be like him
Breathe in
Breathe out
And Breathe
Trying to keep it together
Hoping that it'll get better
Before I write this letter
Explaining why I'm up in my room
Locked away in my gloom
Ending it describing as to why I'm doomed
To face these demons in my zone all alone
While trying to tell myself I can't do this on my own

Written by:
Bryant Herrera

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