Lu Alex - Dirty Mirror

Yeah
It ain't as easy as it looks sometimes
I swear it ain't
For real

Looking at my baby, but I'm talking to her demons
It's all my fault
I know she makes these choices for a reason
Looking at my father figure out his new identity
I'm still in denial that that stroke erased his memory
Looking at my big bro like I know you did your best
We was just some kids, trynna manage all the stress
Looking at my little sister like I know I let you down
You looked up to me, and now you keep them drugs around
Looking at my momma, like I helped you through your pain
Just to turn around and make my woman feel the same
Looking at my lil bro, I don't wanna miss you grow up
You barely get to see me, you just thankful when I show up
Looking at my family like we laugh away our feelings
But it's never been a joke to none of us man, who we kidding
Looking at my teacher, like I know I should stay focused
Maybe you should teach me how to stop feeling so hopeless
Looking at this new girl, like I wish that I could love again...
But I can't promise that we will ever be more than friends
Looking at my grandma like I miss you every day...
Just like I missed that invite to your husband's wedding day
Looking at these women like y'all just as bad as us
So hearing men ain't shit ain't something I'm trynna discuss
Cause we all got our problems, I'm just saying that we equal
And none of us are perfect, that's a part of being people
Looking at the police like I hate your fucking guts
I had my first seizure on a stretcher in handcuffs
Looking at these doctors like I'm still a human being
If you don't have the answers, then stop trynna give me treatment
Looking at these debt collectors trynna take away my bread
How you finna rob me on my hospital bed?
Looking at my homeboy like I wish I could've saved you
But I was just as broken, I was trynna get away too
Looking at my homies, they was all too young to die
I put my trust in God because he knows the reasons why
Looking at these fake niggas praying I don't make it
You better pray to God he choose to give me some more patience
And I'm looking at this bottle like you damn near saved my life
That's why I held you close when I was alone every night
Looking at this NyQuil like it's better if I end it
Catch me in the grave before you catch me out pretending
Looking at these tears roll down my face, but I ain't never been a bitch
You can call me what you want
Just don't call me when I'm rich
I remember that you hated, just keep hating when I make it
And I'm higher than the times that I was faded
I'm looking at my God like why choose me to keep alive?
I must have a greater purpose than trynna survive
My scars will never heal unless I leave them in the open
My mirror may be dirty, but it never will be broken
And I'm looking at myself like I don't recognize you

Looking at myself like I don't recognize you
And I'm looking at myself...
Looking at myself like I don't recognize you
Looking at myself like I don't recognize you
Looking at myself like I don't recognize you
Yeah, I'm looking at myself like I don't recognize you
Looking at myself like I don't recognize you

Written by:
Luke Pierce

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