Ceddysius - Better on Drugs

Better on drugs
Better- Better on drugs
Better on drugs
Like I'm better on drugs
Better on drugs
Better- Better on drugs
Like I'm better on drugs
Like I'm better on drugs

I really had to tell myself to get real
Really had to look in the mirror
Man what's the deal
Really had to tell myself
Ced it's time to chill
It was really almost yourself that you killed
Because I -
I just thought
That I was better on drugs
If my niggas called the plug then I'm gonna re-up
I got that shit, I got that stank
And it's gotten me up
I'm really high as a muthafucka
Man a nigga is stuck
I think I feel better escaping reality tho
I'm bound to be another fuckin casualty
It is my responsibility
To do the best to care for me
The best parts are concealed in me
What will it take to heal me man?
I'm blocking blessings
Not responding to no questions
Comin down feeling dysphoria
Losing all the glory of
Searching for euphoria
Can't find it in this area
I'm causing this hysteria
My mind trapped in delirium

Better on drugs
Better- Better on drugs
Better on drugs
Like I'm better on drugs
Better on drugs
Better- Better on drugs
Like I'm better on drugs
Like I'm better on drugs

It's pretty evident I haven't learned my lessons
Keep fuckin up my chances
Why do I just keep on testing
Gonna feel the backlash
Cause I keep on gettin' cash
Just to spend on the stash
Just wait for the aftermath
Even with bein' surrounded by all this love and support
It's just me, runnin' up north
Shit been throwin' me off the course
When will I say mission abort
I ain't got no strength, I need a torch
Been taking bumps after blunts
Got my body feelin' stunned
Being sober has me in the dumps
Can't believe I play the front
Why do I keep on pullin' stunts?
I find this shit just kinda fun
Man I don't even give a fuck
Where's the bridge I'ma jump

Better on drugs,
Better- Better on drugs
Better on drugs
Like I'm better on drugs
Better on drugs
Better- Better on drugs
Like I'm better on drugs
Like I'm better on drugs

Why the fuck can't I control myself and get a grip
Am I really gonna find myself at the end of this fifth
If this shit ain't enough I'll find another trip
I ain't with this shit, man fuck my life, I'd rather die feeling this bliss
I-I-I-I'm runnin' around here hooked on drugs
Lying to my ppl, I'm ruining trust
Blowed every day and I'm doing it cause
I'm forever chasing after a buzz
Been longin' for the thrills
Start gettin' worried when I'm lookin' for the belt
These are the cards that a nigga has dealt
Shootin' up needles that's giving me the chills
And they ask... what's going on with me?
I'm losin' my mind so far away from sobriety
It's my anxiety, I suffer silently
But that's what happens B, I'm dying to be free
Don't know a normal life I'd only be pretendin'
When I know I'd rather be feedin' my addiction
All my pain is self-infliction
Can't let myself go over the limit
Hope you find me when I OD
Only regret you don't know the real me
It'll be my fault for my death
What am I doin' to myself?
I been ruinin' my health
Turnt off the liquor and the pills
Cannot turn to no one else
It's like I'm carrying this Hell
Sacrificing for myself
Dying to be free

Better on drugs
Better- Better on drugs
Better on drugs
Like I'm better on drugs
Better on drugs
Better- Better on drugs
Like I'm better on drugs
Like I'm better on drugs

Written by:
Cedric Martin Jr.

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