Cold War Everyday - Withering

I never wanted to be selfish
Wide eyed and young
As I held my mothers hand
The footsteps were smaller
The dreams were far away
Everything in bloom
A journey to begin into an ideal world
I took this way so long ago
Exploring things I’ve never known
The love the pain that helped me grow
The good the bad they all wanted me dead
In loneliness I found some friends
I touched the knife without amends
Betrayed by those I thought were the best
I lost what I love and I laid it to rest
And it still keeps me low
Depression came slow
It was time to search for myself
Not to pretend to be somebody else
Pretend to be somebody else
I searched in darkness and in the light
The drugs I took
All the mistakes made
The fucks I’ve given
One night to love
I never knew that sick hearts are meant to be to break the other side
This chaos in my mind from all the mess I left behind
It runs down the river in front of me
The surface is too rough to see
This selfish part of me
I was sober but never felt clean
Found happiness in self destruction
And strong minds that cut off the noose
After it was too late for me to choose
All the drinks and the blood
In the nights I gave a fuck about this life
All the drugs and the pain from the loves that I’ve lost
And here I’m standing all alone
Between the mountains for a second to behold
Not strong enough to hold these canyon walls
The river trenches deeper and deeper into the valley
The self medication made it worse
I wished to leave this room straight into a hearse
Six feet deeper a new place to be
This spiral was killing me
And now the nights won’t let me sleep
It seems it’s getting better but the reapers scythe runs deep
A disease that made it all clear
There is nothing about you that I dont revere
I made a promise a vow
To someone I had thought that I know
You make this all worth
You make this make sense to me
In distance apart but it was never enough
And in the end I was torn again

Written by:
Dennis Weiffenbach, Tim Müller-Späth

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