Realitay - Evil Daydream

I'm thinking back
To all the good times I had
Reminiscing on the past thinking how long will this last
Times moving fast and it ain't a blast
My brain is stuck in the unknown that's why I'm so alone
I crave a cone as I walk and moan
Every morning is a fight when you don't see the light
I'm not alright but my raps are tight
I seem to make it work Tay's mental health is berserk
Unwanted thoughts always flooding my mind
I'm the kind to fuck up but one day I will shine
I'm out of line but I know that's fine
I got to keep moving forward in this life of mine
I act fine but inside I'm crying
I wanna end it all now and trust me I ain't lying
I hate replying blame the paranoia
Always stuck in my own head I don't wanna avoid ya
I'm living in a evil daydream
It might seem like I'm coping but I wanna scream
Why is life so mean
Why is life why is life why is life so mean
I'm living in a evil daydream
It might seem like I'm coping but I wanna scream
Why is life so mean
Why is life why is life why is life so mean
I don't think I can express all my pain
I don't think I can get my life back cause I'm feeling drained
And I'm feeling so strange
I try to act normal but that adds to the strain to the brain
I'm in my room most of the days now
To scared to leave cause this world ain't my playground
I would explain it but I don't know how
I'm pazzing out cause my mindset is full of doubt
If only I could start to sprout and figure this all out I'd be a happy no doubt
But I'm in shock and I wanna tie the knot
I'm feeling so low this is the lowest that I've got
And I've got no coping mechanism my brain is an evil system
Diagnosed Bi-Polar so they can feed me all these prescriptions
I'm holding on by a finger watching demons linger I feel like I'm in kinder
I'm living in a evil daydream
It might seem like I'm coping but I wanna scream
Why is life so mean
Why is life why is life why is life so mean
I'm living in a evil daydream
It might seem like I'm coping but I wanna scream
Why is life so mean
Why is life why is life why is life so mean
I'm so depressed that I don't wanna speak
I'm so sad that I wanna hide away and sleep
This never ending pain is deep
No matter what I do I still remain with no clue
So I write this all for you while not knowing what is true
Why is life so rude I guess I'll have to make it through
I need to get my shit together
This pain will not last forever but the way it's going it might and I ain't feeling that clever
My bad habits have come back again
I barely have the strength to write this or pick up a pen
When will I be myself again
I keep searching everywhere RealiTAY is stuck again
Then I scream for help as I rot away
I'm still feeling dead on this nice sunny day so I lay and watch the time slip away
My minds going cray roll another one to get away
I'm living in a evil daydream
It might seem like I'm coping but I wanna scream
Why is life so mean
Why is life why is life why is life so mean
I'm living in a evil daydream
It might seem like I'm coping but I wanna scream
Why is life so mean
Why is life why is life why is life so mean

Written by:
Taylor Ramsdale

Publisher:
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid

Lyrics powered by Lyric Find