Ace Jackson - Dynamite

Sometimes I wanna get away
Or fast forward the time to better days
I'm struggling, do what I can I dedicate
Part of my day to sit down and meditate
To help me regulate my thoughts
When they start to escalate
Cos they really escalate
Oh God, take away my pain
Please take away this feeling
That I got, I feel my heart bleeding
Got this feeling of emptiness eating away at my soul
I've been praying for healing
I'm fighting my demons, I want my freedom
Literally fighting for my life
I'm still breathing, a part of me is saying
I give up, I don't give a fuck if I die
I've been to Hell and back so many times
I'm starting to feel like a regular
The moment I get there they're waiting for me
With my favourite seat and a 7-up
Why do I feel so ashamed of myself?
Why do I beat myself up all the time?
I feel like I'm lost in the dark
And I think that I'm losing my mind
I'm not proud of myself
All these insecurities, doubting myself
Sometimes the pressure inside builds so much
I feel I might blow up
I've been suppressing my anger
Afraid of the day it finally shows up
I'll never cave like Rocky Balboa
But some nights I pray for this to be over
I wanna get away, get away from this mind of mine
Cos I feel like I'm gonna explode
My mind's made of dynamite
Don't judge a life by the smile on a face
"How you doing?" "I'm great" Easy
I've been avoiding my problems
I feel it consuming me, I've been afraid
And I lie to my friends, I say I'm okay
But it's getting worse every day
I feel I've been losing the feeling of freedom
I felt at an early age
When I didn't feel trapped in a cage
When I didn't hold back all my rage
All the peace that I had is now fleeting
Attacked, I'm repeatedly slapped in the face
The Devil's been taking the fire from my heart
All of my veins are frozen
I'm living inside of my head but I need to move out
This place is broken
I feel like I'm swimming in mud
Against the current, with weights on my ankles
Tryna light up the darkness of the whole sky
I'm standing outside with the flame of a candle
There's chaos in my head
I'm fighting the voice that's telling me
Things would be easier if I was dead
Telling me I don't deserve to be happy
And I need to focus on all my regrets
I feel like it's hopeless, my life's a mess
But writing these poems relieves the stress
My soul's been poisoned
But I don't wanna end up a disappointment
I think that the biggest problem about my problems
Is I avoid them
I wanna get away, get away from this mind of mine
Cos I feel like I'm gonna explode
My mind's made of dynamite

Written by:
Orlando Avalon

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