ShyLock - ShyLock

I'm not a Shylock
I do hip hop
But people like to talk shit
And they can talk a lot
Know how I's brought up?
Yeah, I was raised Jewish
I just never knew if
I even believed in God
But you get caught up
In a name
What's in a name?
Is it an identity?
Or do the feelings that I have
Inspire words that I write
And all that is probably
What should represent me?
Do you see through me?
Nah, but I see through you
I see you try to bring me down
Cuz you got nothing else to do
It makes you feel good
To make me feel bad
It's kinda sad
To pick on a fellow man
Cuz if you cut me, do I not bleed?
If I'm hungry, do I not feed?
If I'm sad, would I not weep?
And if I'm tired, should I not sleep?
It's my life
And it's time to see
What I've been trying
But been a little too blind to see
And I'm trying to get by
But dying to be
What's been tryina to break out
From inside of me
Ever since I was young
I felt this power inside
Could conjure rhymes like a wizard
In just a blink of an eye
And then my mom died
I took that as a sign
To start writing rhymes
Instead of leaving my ‘shy’ behind
While I just torture myself
Cuz writing rhymes is what helps
To make sense of all that's going on inside
Though everything inside I keep hidden cuz it's mine to hold
Sometimes I have to get it off my mind
Cuz if I didn't do it
I'd be controlled by my past
And then really
I'd have almost nothing left
I'd just lie atop my bed
Awake at night, not writing rhymes
Just asking why it is
I can't get any rest
Cuz it's my 'shy' that's in hiding
Inside of my shyness
While I'm closer to death
With every breath
It's like I made a trade
With myself and I didn't pay
And now I owe myself
A pound of flesh
It's my life
And I'm bound to be
What's been bottled up and drowning
All around in me
If she could see me now
Oh, so proud to see
How I turned my life around
After a tragedy
So I write songs
To remind myself of
All the things I thought
I'd have to leave behind
I just couldn't let go
Cuz I'd be missing my whole past
But now it lives forever in my rhymes
You see, I had it backwards
All this time in my head
The key to my future
Was always in a pen
I still battle with myself
While my 'shy' locks and unlocks
It's not perfect
But now I sleep again
You see, the 'shy' is a gift
But mine was blocked
In a place I couldn't get to
But now it's not
It's been unlocked
And now it won't stop
The words that come through me now
Are tip top
Until it stops
Then it feels like all my nerves shocked
Cuz the music relieves me
When my blood's hot
Like Rabbit
This could be my one shot
Now it's all in my hands
Cuz I'm the ShyLock
It's my life
And I'm proud to be
A little more than what anyone
Ever found in me
And now these sounds I'm making
So astoundingly
Is how I finally found some peace
Deep down in me
It's my life
And I'm proud to be
A little more than what anyone
Ever found in me
And now these sounds I'm making
So astoundingly
Is how I finally found some peace
Deep down in me

Written by:
Daniel Ginsberg

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