Who's Gary? - Still Here

The worlds falling apart but I'm like fuck it
Stay away from people okay I think I love it
I just wanna be alone all the time
I just wanna go home is that alright
The worlds falling apart but I'm like fuck it
Stay away from me okay I think I love it
I don't even know why I'm still here
Don't even know why I'm still here

If you're hearing this it's probably too late
I was stopping to say that it's just not a good day
Walking away feeling like like a piece of shit
I plead the fifth when I talk cause they not hearing shit
I write rhymes in my free time it's something to do
It's nothing to you but I need a way to come to conclusions
That my life is just useless I'm at the end of the movie
Credits rolling I just wish that someone knew me
Cause I don't know myself its like a show and tell
Any time I look into the mirror I don't know what's real
So how can I be sure that all of this isn't a dream
One day I'll wake up and see myself hooked to machines
Trying to revive me but fuck it just go and pull the plug
Shit I shouldn't love the drugs keep me looking up
But I'll be looking down I'm always staring at the ground
It's loud in my mind I'm just trying to turn it down
The kind of thoughts in my head at any given time
Are enough to put me in jail this isn't fine
My therapist quit she don't wanna deal with me
I feel tipsy smoke sticky but feel shitty
There's never been a day that I can wake up feeling happy
I make a beat it's kinda trappy kinda crappy
I'm a sadder dude with an attitude think I'm mad at you
But really I'm just hoping that I'll crack in two
Grab the tool put it right up to my head and pull it
Full of bullets should I would i fuck it let's just do it
Think I'm bout to lose it think I'm done with making music
Maybe I'll just mute it
On second thought maybe I'll just come back for a minute
Your ass in a civic smack you and ask you to lick it
Like the last time we call you six nine
Cause you just run and telling people that my dick's nice
I mean I think I appreciate it but I think you're lying
Shits on my mind but it comes out when I think it's time
So just rewind go back to the matter at hand
I'm stabbing your man same time catching a tan
Got my ass in the sand cause life's a beach isn't it
Music loud feeling deaf

The worlds falling apart but I'm like fuck it
Stay away from people okay I think I love it
I just wanna be alone all the time
I just wanna go home is that alright
The worlds falling apart but I'm like fuck it
Stay away from me okay I think I love it
I don't even know why I'm still here
Don't even know why I'm still here

I can't go to sleep without hoping I don't wake up
Can't wake up cause days suck I just say fuck
Can't drive around without thinking about going off a cliff
And all of this shit runs through my mind no stopping it
Now I'm on the fence do I jump or do I stay
Is it worth all the time to live another day
Feeling like an idiot feel like I don't got the time
Another day another rhyme I'll just say I'm fine
Make the beat around the vocal track just hoping I can make it fit
It doesn't really matter cause I'm making shit for hateful pricks
The way I think the way my mind works is fucking crazy
I'm fucking lazy fat as shit but it's just been lately
Lately like the last twenty five years I think
The more I think the more I think I need a drink
Why'd I start drinking maybe I was curious
Maybe I just needed help but the more I learn it's just
Too much to handle all at once I need a fucking break
All this shit let me rest in peace too much to take
I need a gun to put a bullet in my brain I think
Do it in the bathroom my last fuck you I will stain the sink
I made it big made millions got my cake up
Got all the money in the world then I wake up
My dreams are nightmares I think I'm living in a dream
The voices in my head are telling me I'm good to leave

The worlds falling apart but I'm like fuck it
Stay away from people okay I think I love it
I just wanna be alone all the time
I just wanna go home is that alright
The worlds falling apart but I'm like fuck it
Stay away from me okay I think I love it
I don't even know why I'm still here
Don't even know why I'm still here
The worlds falling apart but I'm like fuck it
Stay away from people okay I think I love it
I just wanna be alone all the time
I just wanna go home is that alright
The worlds falling apart but I'm like fuck it
Stay away from me okay I think I love it
I don't even know why I'm still here
Don't even know why I'm still here

Written by:
Gary Callahan

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