Cuzinleth & OdotZed - Mind Made Up

Been hiding the pain
Couldn't make up my mind
On the path I'm deciding to take
Hit a fork in the road
Now the fork is inside of my brain
Is it left or the right that'll take me
Back to the days when I might've been sane
Or do I just have to find out the way
When the choice is made
I didn't get no pre-tense
(Nah)
Said I didn't get any warning
For the last few days
I been hanging off a wall like awning
For the last few months
I been sitting on the edge of my seat
For the past three weeks
I was staring at defeat in the face
Feeling amazed that I'm deep down
Still gonna be with the greats
When it put it all on the line
Never been dry so you know I ain't talking laundry
Ain't talking jerky
Ain't talking fraudulent bars that are quirky
On a serious ting I was hurting
On a real note
Veered off track on my journey
Delirious, searching whole time
Looking for the fear I was curbing daily
Hidden away I put everybody before myself
Forgot to take time and I started to deplore myself
When I picked up mic back then did this for myself
But these days can't motivate to even record myself
So where'd you go
Where you been brah
Where's your head at now
I been away for a bit but I'm starting to head to the clouds
Messed with a thousand dead man
Benched myself
But got strength in the mouth
Questioning how one second of bliss
Could ever outweigh so many spent in a downward spiral
Out for the rival
But I didn't know the problem was me
But I didn't know the problem was I
Said I didn't notice what I couldn't see
Eyes been shut to the life that I've wanted to lead
Paused the game and didn't save so I start to believe
That the same checkpoints been harder to reach
When it comes to the second time round
Guessing I've found what I've lost in the wreckage by now
But I'm searching daily
Looking for the lesson I vowed to teach
Bound to peak but still reckon I'm loud and decent
Even just as a menace I'm sounding a beast
Couching the sleeps 'cause I'm finally back
On a level that I'm proud to release

Written by:
Ian Erasmus

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