Gordough - Through You

Always thought you were immortal mormon man
You were far from normal
Demons haunt my nightmares, tryna take me under
When I wake up they still there, it make me wonder
My life ain't mine and yours ain't really yours
It's all out of control, I know that in my soul
Now I'm choked up, tears stream and my heart breaks
My phone ring, that text hit, my hands shake
I start screaming, I'm at the wheel, I lose control
Gotta slow down, Dondre shook cause he don't know
Diego hit my line and broke the news, I can't believe it
My brother a thousand miles away and he stopped breathing
It wasn't even the same night, twenty four hours later
I'm hearing his moms is on a flight
She touch down at like five, got tears all in my eyes
I'm praying that he lying, no way you up in Heaven flying
Your phone don't ring anymore but I keep on trying
I open up our convo hoping that you typing
Had to call Damian cause I couldn't keep it together
Life without you still ain't get no better
I just need a message, a sign of better days
Cause all I feel now is regrets for days I flaked
It's hard to shake
Demons haunt my nightmares, tryna take me under
When I wake up they still there, it make me wonder
My life ain't mine and yours ain't really yours
It's all out of control, I know that in my soul
If Elijah saw me now, would he be proud of me
I doubt it, see, losing him took the best part out of me
Shit still don't sound right like it's out of key
Cause honestly it hurts not saying goodbye properly
I check up on your moms when I get the chance
Even if you were still here, that was always the plan
You really held it down like no other
One man I was proud as fuck to call my brother, you
Had a whole life in Cali waiting
But death was feeling greedy and decided to take it
Yeah I'm still fucked up and there's no end in sight
I wanna see you so bad, I'm ready take my own life
This very night yeah, it's a scary sight but
I just wanna die, look up to the sky
Then I ask one last time, should I
Cause a world without you is colder
Than Hell when it freeze over
I look over my shoulder
And swear I felt you closer
Might be a shadow or a ghost or
Mental projection of what I want most
From this shitty world
Lost my brother, lost my friend
What I'd give to take Cuervo shots with you again
This is the end

Written by:
Diego Gonzalez

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