Viewpoint Jane - Exclusionary

I don't know how to feel
Now I got what they told me I should want
And it seems so surreal
With the kids and the dog out on the lawn
Monday night at the grocery store
And I'm staring down the aisle
The cashier asks if I'm okay
So I fake a little smile
Here I am sitting still
Watching TV, paying bills
Go to bed to wake up
Press repeat, I've had enough
And my back's always against another wall
I can't have it all
Well we talk about Spain
We talk about London and Nepal
But I'm starting to think
That we'll never get anywhere at all
I watch you study
While I'm writing in my head
But by nine o'clock we're both so tired
That we fall right into bed
Here we are lying still
Finding peace in Benadryl
Fall asleep to wake up
Press repeat, I've had enough
With our backs always against another wall
We can't have it all
We can't have it all
And each time I give my body up
It's like trading in my heart
To a salesman who assures me
Every life is a new start
Here I am holding still
Taking anti-nausea pills
I can't eat, that's okay
Only six more months away
And my back's always against another wall
I can't have it all
Now we never go out
Every day has become predictable
Did you ever expect
That our lives would be so traditional
But I sit in the darkness
And I listen to him breathe
And a smile plays around her lips
As I tuck them in and leave
Say goodnight
Close the door
Start an evening full of chores
Who can say
What might be
Choice is exclusionary
But I stand for just a moment in the hall
Maybe this is all
(No one told me love could be lonely)

Written by:
Anissa Sorokin

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