Nelson Mendoza - I Sat Down

Eyes low with clouded vision keeps me from sinning
But at what cost does it keep me from living
A liver destroying his liver with the liquor without anything to eat, still call me mister
No end goal of the night fighting off hunger pains cause his money went down the drain To strengthen his brain Except most of it went to strains to relive generational strain
While fitting the role of a model I lead the way
But my siblings acting like babies, trying to down a whole bottle they don't behave
They cause me to pass the fist to the pacifist, we leave with blood stains
I can't look them in their eyes cause I feel ashamed, I call that abuser's pain
Too many lonely nights questing if I did the right thing
I feel numb, pain is all I want to feel
And as I feel I chase a new low to the high of my addiction
Wishing I could go higher, even with no money I'mma stay close the the supplier
My genes already wired to be a buyer
So don't trust in me to reach the height of messiah
Lost all passion when coach didn't inspire now weed is what I perspire
Always knew how to finesse cause my grandpa was a liar and a thief

Always went to funerals and I still haven't wept
So don't test my gangsta unless you looking for death
Cause I see pass the soul revealing something you don't know
I could either fill or make make more holes
The choice is yours, cause at the end of the day, I'm the one looking for a new low
Eyes low with clouded vision Keeps me from sinning
But at what cost does it keep me from living
A liver destroying his liver with the liquor without anything to eat, still call me mister
No end goal of the night fighting off hunger pains
Cause his money went down the drain to strengthen his brain
Except most of it went to strains to relive Generational strain
While fitting the role of a model I lead the way but my siblings acting like babies
Trying to down a whole bottle they don't behave
They cause me to pass the fist to the pacifist
We leave with blood stains I can't look them in their eyes
Cause I feel ashamed, I call that abuser's pain
Too many lonely nights questing if I did the right thing

I feel numb, pain is all I want to feel
And as I feel I chase a new low to the high of my addiction
Wishing I could go higher even with no money I'mma stay close the the supplier
My genes already wired to be a buyer
So don't trust in me to reach the height of messiah
Lost all passion when coach didn't inspire now weed is what I perspire
Always knew how to finesse cause my grandpa was a liar and a thief
Always went to funerals and I still haven't wept
So don't test my gangsta unless you looking for death
Cause I see pass the soul revealing something you don't know
I could either fill or make make more holes
The choice is yours, cause at the end of the day
I'm the one looking for a new low

Written by:
Nelson Mendoza Jr.

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