Vagabond Mafia - Pebbles

You goin down a bad road
Prayin that it's not a dead end
Hopin that you come home
You goin down a bad road
Prayin that it's not a dead end
Hopin that you come home
You ain’t listen
And it ain’t hard to tell
But I want you to feel me
Like this written in brail
I want you to hear me
Without havin to yell
Without me strainin my voice
Without me cursin as well
Without me endin up just givin up
And sayin to hell
With all the love that
I showed you
I can’t get over this guilt
I’m still feelin like I owe you
You ain’t showin me nothin
I swear that I don’t even know you
Poppin all those pills
To keep a blurry brain
But addiction hit you hard
Just like a hurricane
Yeah I tried to do somethin
But instead I got pushed away
You was my rock
Now you a pebble in the driveway
We all lookin for a way to
Fight the pain
You could go and self medicate
To try to find an escape
There’s always easy ways
But the drugs they just take
And you ain’t gettin no better
See the fear up on your face
Man I saw you drink
Up your emotions
10 Years old I’m thinkin it’s my fault
Tears be flowin like an ocean
Ever since a youngen
All I wanted was to help
Instead I seen you struggle
Dropping weight
You cuttin notches in yo belt
Yeah, I regret it
But instead of drownin myself there
I saved myself
Man that’s real
21 Years old and
I be fighting just to feel
Im prayin that this shit don’t get you killed
And that’s real
You goin down a bad road
Prayin that it's not a dead end
Hopin that you come home
You goin down a bad road
Prayin that it's not a dead end
Hopin that you come home
Sorry I know I been duckin your calls
But there’s more to this shit
Than I’ve been givin off
I’m goin through it all
I feel the tension between us
I’m on a mission to get cleaner
Don’t know if you can sense the change in my demeanor
It's just
It’s killing me slowly
It holds me
And won’t let me go
Feels like it owns me
Controls me
I swear it’s gettin old
Thought I was better
Could handle the things it put me through
I never knew the pain I was causin
I was too far consumed
Wrapped around her finger
Stuck to that shit like glue
When I’m around her I’m triggered
And don’t know what to do
I’ve never experienced a love that’s quite like you
With your funny ways to bring me higher when I’m feelin blue
I’ve been sober for some time now
But temptation still lingers
It's stuck inside of my mind now
Every day it deepens
I feel myself headin back down into these dark roads
These whiskey waters I tread in when I feel like I’m all alone
Don’t want to be a bother
Just wanna let you know
You never caused this problem
Just don’t know how to cope
Wish I was smarter
Be the role model you need for growth
Cause we grew up without a father
I know that pain, too
You goin down a bad road
Prayin that it's not a dead end
Hopin that you come home
You goin down a bad road
Prayin that it's not a dead end
Hopin that you come home
Look I know you feelin lost
I get it more than you would know
But what I’m sayin is
You gotta give yourself some room to grow
You boxin yourself in
I wanna break it apart
The thought of you alone out there
Is breakin my heart
Like fuck
Can we just kick it like we used to
I just wanna be here
I don’t wanna make a new you
The process ain’t an overnight
But you can’t get discouraged
You can’t starve your brain
And then expect it to flourish
But hey
No pressure tho
I just wanna show you
That I’m right next to ya tho
Always got a place to go
Whenever you be feelin low
Ain’t gotta do it on your own
That’s healin
I just wanna show you that your
Voice is worth hearin
Moms and me been cryin
Worried bout
Where you be steerin
But you keep that hurt tucked deep
I’m sorry if those words cut deep
But it’s somethin that I must speak
Hopin that you come home

Written by:
Joseph Timmins, Kalani Ray

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