D. Paul - old habits

Lately it's been kinda hard to keep my head high
I could try smokin' on sativa just to get that head high
Don't know why it's a struggle just to get by
'Cause I've been anxious don't know where this road will take us
It's just this isolation I've been feeling all alone
If I didn't reach out to people then who would call my phone
So it's been hard to feel like anybody cares when nobody's there
They all say that they're near, I cry for help but no one hears
I love all my peers and I want to let 'em know it
But it's been hard for me to show it when I don't know my emotions
I'm trying to believe that I'm not a burden
But I can't stop reminiscing of when I used to flourish
I want to be a good person but old habits die hard
It feels like I'm reverting to who I was from the start
It makes you feel like all that growth you did was for nothing
It's to the point where I'm scared of the person that I'm becoming
I take one step forward and I take two back
I try to get up but my ankle snapped, where's my angel at?
But I gotta keep moving
But to be honest I just don't know what I'm doing
I take one step forward and I take two back
I try to get up but my ankle snapped, where's my angel at?
But I gotta keep moving
But to be honest I just don't know what I'm doing
My grades suffer, I just want to be a good son to my mother
And I've been trying to pull myself out of the gutter
But it's a struggle just to get out of bed in the first place
Someone hit me up and asked what I'm doing for my birthday
And I paused, cause I was planning on watching movies
After that go to sleep and do the same old routine
So I took a second and I thought about it
But I don't really got the strength right now to talk about it
I almost wanna decline but I changed my mind
He asked how I'm doing and I told him that I'm fine
Now you know that's a lie but it's hard enough to open up
I ask for help but when a door opens I close it shut
So if I snap at you it ain't because I'm mad at you
I'm just in a crabby mood which might give me an attitude
But I know that that's not an excuse but, trust me imma come back
And I got you in my corner dawg you know I love that
I take one step forward and I take two back
I try to get up but my ankle snapped, where's my angel at?
But I gotta keep moving
But to be honest I just don't know what I'm doing
I take one step forward and I take two back
I try to get up but my ankle snapped, where's my angel at?
But I gotta keep moving
But to be honest I just don't know what I'm doing

Written by:
Dominic Leone

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