2ok Hojo - Blade in my Mind

I'm just a young nigga wit' a lot on his mind
Happiness is something I'll never find
I stay wit' my brothers I know they gon ride
And stay wit' my blade just in case I gotta slide
If only you could hear the thoughts in my mind
All this pain you could see in my eyes
Been through hell and back you wouldn't be surprised
I'm thinking of putting this blade in my mind
I'm just a young nigga wit' a lot on his mind
Happiness is something I'll never find
I stay wit' my brothers I know they gon ride
And stay wit' my blade just in case I gotta slide
If only you could hear the thoughts in my mind
All this pain you could see in my eyes
Been through hell and back you wouldn't be surprised
I'm thinking of putting this blade in my mind
I'll never hate 'cuz we all gotta shine
But I'll be damned if I fall into line
I can't believed you looked into my eyes
Told me you love me, man nah, that's a lie
You play me once, but you can't fool me twice
After that one time life favors my dice
I done been alone, I'm done living that life
I'm trying desperately not to live to die
I was never told not to cry
But something about it just don't feel right
Maybe I still need more insight
But there ain't no wisdom to seek for in sight
Even though I lost a couple fights
Ian going down without a fight
I'm sticking by that til' I see the light
Love is all I needed to get high
What do I do?
What do I say?
My dad always tell me I should pray
And remind me he could die any day
The tears wanna fall but I run away
The people I love I do it for y'all
Without y'all I ain't gone make it far
When I look up I wan' see the stars
But when I look closer they far just like stars
Who would've thought that life would be so hard
I'm 17 and I don't got a car
I'm 17 and barely got a job
I'm 17 with these dealt cards
I gotta wear a mask in my own house
I gotta be separated from my spouse
They say "You 17 you should live your life"
That don't mean fuck a new bitch every night
That don't mean go to parties getting high
That don't mean act like everything alright
That don't mean be a theif in the night
And it surely don't mean to not speak your mind
I follow the guidance from the universe
Without its guidance I would leave the earth
I took my grandad and ma to the dirt
It's feels weird taking 'em out the hearse
It's only up from here, that's what they tell you
And it be same niggas that fail you
But this time I got a plan that's fail proof
Roof caving in, but it's me the roof fell through
To paradise is where I'm tryna sail to
Making impressions I hope to inspire you
I'm starving and I mean more then money hungry
I take what I need you won't get a crumb from me
I'm just a young nigga wit' a lot on his mind
Happiness is something I'll never find
I stay wit' my brothers I know they gon ride
And stay wit' my blade just in case I gotta slide
If only you could hear the thoughts in my mind
All this pain you could see in my eyes
Been through hell and back you wouldn't be surprised
I'm thinking of putting this blade in my mind
I'm just a young nigga wit' a lot on his mind
Happiness is something I'll never find
I stay wit' my brothers I know they gon ride
And stay wit' my blade just in case I gotta slide
If only you could hear the thoughts in my mind
All this pain you could see in my eyes
Been through hell and back you wouldn't be surprised
I'm thinking of putting this blade in my mind

Written by:
Howard Smith

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