your best kept secret - bandaid

The other side of me decides to disavow
I take a moment to cut out the voices that tell me I'll never amount
I check my pulse each day to feel like I'm okay
I stop a moment to notice the colors before they're taken away
It's my defense against the creatures in my head
I form my thoughts from the things that are true and I slaughter the lies they embed
And every time they try to keep me up at night
I circle reasons to live and I cross out the fiction that I should just die
Tear off the bandaid
Bleed out
Bleed out
Self medicate
For now
For now
The panic seeping in, losing control again
I know if I hear out the negative, take a sedative and try to pretend
I will be lonely still, it isn't in these pills
It sure as hell isn't something outside me that makes me behave like I'm ill
Temperature's rising and I'm on the verge of a mental crisis
Washing my palms of the stains from the blade that I use to cut with
Can I be clean of my actions and laugh like I always used to
I don't regret my depression cause something about it is causing the demons to lose
Tear off the bandaid
Bleed out
Bleed out
Self medicate
For now
For now
I can see for just a second
I can breathe for just a second
Stay the hell away
Please give me room to think
Gardens grow for just a second
Rivers flow for just a second
One thing that I know
I can't do this alone
Tear the bandaid off my skin
Exit wounds are seen again
Tear off the bandaid
Bleed out
Bleed out
Self medicate
For now
For now
Tear off the bandaid
Bleed out
Bleed out
Self medicate
For now
For now

Written by:
Blake Avery

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