Tay Jade - if u love me as u claim

I came home to know that I was alone in overthinking
I'm about to call you but you'd have no concern
We're playing happy so you can skip your turn
With the dealing

I'm not even eating
Can't describe the feeling
It's like you're numb but the numbing gel is sickening
Follow me out
If you're broken
I'll heal it
Give me your pieces and for mine I'll let you steal it
But now I'm bleeding
A little too hard this time

And now I'm at the stage
Where I look for your traits
In everyone like it's a game
Don't wanna go there
I can't take another second wave of pain
Three million five thousand sixty three thoughts
You're three million five thousand sixty two

Cos I could give you everything I have
When I have nothing but the pieces you threw back
If you care as much as you claim
Then why don't I mean something?
And if hurting me is so easy for you
Then why is hating you so hard?
I'd love you more than this
But I'm at the max cause' I cared for you too far
If you love me as much as you claim
Then why do I mean nothing?

I woke up to know that us being okay
Was just me dreaming
They say "it'll figure itself out"
It already has cause' feeling unsettled is the new default feeling

And I can't believe everyone thought I'd be the one at fault
When hating you for hurting me doesn't even have a start
It hurt to love you this hard
But at least my love went somewhere instead of nowhere

Cos now I'm at the stage
Where I look for your traits
In everyone like it's a game
Don't wanna go there
I can't take another second wave of pain
Three million five thousand sixty three thoughts
You're three million five thousand sixty two

Cos I could give you everything I have
When I have nothing but the pieces you threw back
If you care as much as you claim
Then why don't I mean something?
And if hurting me is so easy for you
Then why is hating you so hard?
I'd love you more than this
But I'm at the max cause' I cared for you too far
If you love me as much as you claim
Then why do I mean nothing?

Cos maybe you meant it when you claimed it before
But why couldn't you mean it just a little more?
Cos I can't stand to try to hate you anymore
Cos I can't not care about you
Ohh
Wish I could restart my second chance for you
So we can rewind it all but start off new
I'll never understand how I could still love you
After you hurt me even more

Cos I could give you everything I have
When I have nothing but the pieces you threw back
If you care as much as you claim
Then why don't I mean something?
And if hurting me is so easy for you
Then why is hating you so hard?
I'd love you more than this
But I'm at the max cause' I cared for you too far
If you love me as much as you claim
Then why did I mean nothing?

Written by:
Taylor Barrientos

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