Daulton. - P.S. I'm Fine Now

Throwback to August I remember falling and being unconscious
Drenching with sweat from my head to my toes
I was confused and I couldn't stop coughing
My blood sugar levels were so goddamn low
That I should've ended up in a coffin
I was in shock and my body was froze
Then they rushed me straight to the doctors
I was so anxious upon the arrival
In my mind it was survival
I was so scared and I felt so damn cornered so I had nowhere else to turn but a bible
And to be honest I lost all my faith when I was in the laundry room going through trials
And tribulations I can't catch a break
No part of my life has been violins, it's only violence
My shoes you couldn't walk a mile in
Hearing screams through the silence
Nothing but pain when I'm smiling
I'm dialing
Calling hoping to hear the dial tone
Wondering if its gon' die again
I need to be alone
No helping my brains, what's inside of it
I kicked the bucket and threw in the towel whenever my back hit the wall
I felt at my lowest if I was truly at rock bottom where else in the fuck could I fall
I remember vividly cutting my wrist and cleaning up the blood with napkins in the car
My mom was upset and printed out screenshots of conversations
I had to help me catch on
I couldn't tell you the pain in her eyes
Looked at her face and I tried not to cry
This was way back in 2009
The talk that we had sent chills all down my spine
And honestly I thought I moved on
Reminiscing that moment done proved wrong
2018 Wrote a fucking letter
Informing the public I'm 'bout to move on

Do I wanna die
Or do I wanna stay
But it would be a lie
If you looked me in my face
And you ask me if I'm happy
Man I can't erase the pain
If I got to see you again tomorrow you can take me to a grave

Forever missing a piece of my heart
Conversing with demons inside the dark
Even the weakest will fall apart
Speaking to deacons about the start
I'm anxious that I will never progress
I'm anxious cause I always feel depressed
Wondering what move gon' be next
100 Pound anchor steady laying on my chest
And I can't seem to get it off
Death really seems to always get me lost
I'd buy happiness no matter the cost
Oh no I'm anxious again wonder what set it off

Rest in peace Juice
Rest in peace Kobe
Important leaders and idols to me even though both didn't know me

Nobody knowing the pain that I feel inside
Flirting with the idea of suicide
When will this feeling not coincide
Fuck your ideas I need more of mine
Feeling like I am so short of time
Almost going crazy I'm borderline
Wish I could find better like Coraline
Gotta change up my imagine now I'm 45

I kicked the bucket and threw in the towel whenever my back hit the wall
I felt at my lowest if I was truly at rock bottom where else in the fuck could I fall
I remember vividly cutting my wrist and cleaning up the blood with napkins in the car
My mom was upset and printed out screenshots of conversations
I had to help me catch on
I couldn't tell you the pain in her eyes
Looked at her face and I tried not to cry
This was way back in 2009
The talk that we had sent chills all down my spine
And honestly I thought I moved on
Reminiscing that moment done proved wrong
2018 Wrote a fucking letter
Informing the public I'm 'bout to move on

Do I wanna die
Or do I wanna stay
But it would be a lie
If you looked me in my face
And you ask me if I'm happy
Man I can't erase the pain
If I got to see you again tomorrow you can take me to a grave

Written by:
Daulton Brown

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