Jacob Bell - Hate

We moving past
We cruising fast
No hate in here
This real love lasts
This Kindness separates irate
Feelings that I must contain
I know it's natural yet I try to blame
Injure others with my pain
I didn't mean it
Sorry This is just the way that I was raised
Just like Bruce Wayne
Festering the anger through my freezing veins
Ain't no shame
Yet I maintain
Renting rooms to hate
Upset at why here is where it stays
Sayonara to my peace
And my joy and my hope
I just want to have a piece
Of some joy and some hope
And I wish I knew a way to release all of this hate
Maybe its my mental state
Or the conduct of my faith

It's got me looking at these hands of mine that I have often clenched
What makes me dream of these scenarios in which I throw a fist
Could it be that I'm protective of the ones I love around me
Or could it be the fact that I made what I hate surround

My favorite things have been arrayed with negativity
Just like an artist that hates on their creativity
Just like the Christian that can't stand their positivity
Like many people that wrestle with their inner being
Kindness is what I desire
But I am tired
If I was God I'd be the first one that I'd fire
Yet He's gracious and has kindness just for me
Lord you know what they did to me
Kicked me to the curb then shunned
Gutted out my heart then stunned
My confidence in who I am is shaken and destroyed
The freedom that I thought I had is misplaced by a void
Forgiveness seems so far off yet you call me to employ
With my mission
That's the call
Live with kindness
All in all

It's got me looking in this heart of mine that I have often tense
What makes it fracture like a bone in the absence of my sense
Could it that its been taking beatings since the day I was born
All from myself I'm feeling hateful I will deal with it in the...

Mourning all the people that I thought I had the capability to show kindness to and
Searching for the opportunity in which I'm actually being kind to you
But every time that it comes
My loving heart seems to run
Hiding from the possibility that it gets severely injured from my beating drum
Hate you've cheating me for long enough you can leave but I can't shake you
Forgiveness can you please come home you are what I need so I can grieve too
How many times have I failed the Spirit's call
How much disobedience caused by the fall
I need your help to renew my spirit now
What's necessary to you my will will bow
My relationship's breaking
I feel the earth quaking
The clouds in the sky have been oddly rotating
Or maybe that's me turned 180 degrees
There's a new life before me
I see the Son's glory
With rays that are shining
Through all the green leaves
And the birds have been chirping
My heart is restoring
The hate that I had
I just needed a story
The hate is now gone
I just needed your glory

Written by:
Jacob Bell

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