Young Fiction - Abuser

You exist
And that's a fact that I can't change
No matter how much I wish I could, your presence stays the same
The pain you brought me, brought me down to my knees
But I promise, the tears I cried, you didn't see
I wanted to have you somewhere in my life, but the feel of your touch cut me like a jagged knife
I was damaged, but you were damaged, too
So I justified your actions and did everything to protect you
I was foolish with the way that I fooled myself
Into thinking that you cared all because I wasn't okay by myself
And nobody else knew about everything that you put me through
And maybe this is so hard because part of me still feels at fault
But it's not my fault, and deep down I know that
But you beat into my head the idea that it was
That it was my fault you hit me!
That somehow I deserved it!
And I lived with that for years while I pretended things were perfect!
But finally I see what I needed to see, and that is purpose!
And to see that I'm not worthless!
I deserve something good!
And I didn't think that before, but that's the truth
And now you're gone, and my self worth is strong
And those are foundations that I built all on my own
The power you had over me is something I've outgrown
So you exist
But your existence no longer affects me
Abuser

Written by:
Koali'i Cuyno

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