Benarr C - ILFRARD

Check list that I'm checking
Ain't no gang that I'm repping
1804, I'm a zoe, I'm so reckless
Ice in my veins, Tears pour like rain
Parents living through pain
I started this 4 years ago, they said I was insane

Education the key
My father was telling me
He wanted me to continue his, legacy
All these books he would've gave me, he'll give them to families, charity,
Just because I chose a path, that they truly do not see
With no degree
I believe, Ima come back to that piece
I can't make them smile, indeed
But I'm learning every week
Self-taught, Independent, understand I'm out of line
I just wanna grow the family, a empire in mind
It ain't mine, it's for us
Networking but I don't trust
Father told me you could talk, never trust, never eat from them at all
Tryna get rid of the fam, you could see there's many scars
Poppa scared to even go back, cause he got a broken heart, his own friends
His own men
Honestly
Tryna kill him, before he could even go and plant a seed
Test me please
I'd make sure ya all would bleed
Personally
I stopped beefing as I age
Type to only make a call
I won't hear from y'all at all
Mess with me n my own family, I'll forget about them laws
Poppin' off, let me live
Poppa told me you could give, but don't take
You like helping, they don't like you, all they do is really hate
My own race, laughing at me, saying that I'm a disgrace
Thinkin' big, 5 years later, I'll show you who's life's in stake
I'll be damn, hope my poppa live enough, so he'll see I understand
Only Family, I know
Watch who you call your brothers or who you bringing home
Caution zone
Crossed the line, when you bringing them inside emotionally
They don't care about you b, thinking "what's in it for me"
Strictly business
They don't care if you was dead
Putting bounties on yo head
If poppa was over there, mom would mourn to his death
Poppa still having regrets
Don't you worry, soon I'll take yo place and take care of the fam
I'm the head of the fam
Soon I'll turn into a man
Making changes, and some plans

Knew I met you at Eleven
Still was disconnected then
No relations ever since
Wasn't used to having 2 parents, was used to having 1
We messed up the only bond
I messed up the only bond
Wasn't used to it, I'm sorry, but there ain't no going back
Remember grandpoppa and grandmama, was sitting on they lap
Yo whole story is a movie, couldn't find ways to react
Feeling shameful, as I rap
Make sure I make this family something, promise you that you'll be glad
Dedicated, it's my time
Trust, it's deeper than my raps
There's no way we going back
We ain't staying where we at

Written by:
Berinsky Francois

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