The surface deep - forever freestyle

2000
I never want anything to last forever
I want some things to last through out today
And a little further
I text Mo when I'm down
That's how I feel better
But with most people
I Fight to be accepted
As myself like homosexuals
Changing schools too often as a kid
As really caused me
To not know how to connect with people
But please just trust me
In reverse
I hope to find somebody that would love me
For the most of life's remains
But all the trys I've hads being ugly
Meet Someone new
And at first we get attached
But I somehow knew
That if I would let in that part Of me
That sees everything ahead the path as a mirage
Cause hope sometimes feels like
Way too much a fragile thing for me to have
It crashes
I never really knew what it was
You either missed all of the signs
Or you just trying to be in love
With someone Carrying pain
From somewhere else like you carry yours
Try not to give this same issues to someone else involved
Normally These are the things I tell to my guys
But these days I keep to myself more cause I realized
Except a few people most y'all are all in disguise
Seeing what other people got and You just trying to take a bite
I Might be paranoid
I mean this Whole country is insane
Contemplating contemporary Pleasures to help me ease the pain
Eyes closed but for most my life I've seen it rain
So maybe I'm just being accustomed to losing and being delayed
All in all
Nothing ever felt well enough
Burnt down bridges that these people
Said drugs would Help me cross
Societal norms are morals
Built ignoring all the hell in us
Was feeling lost
Till I opened up when I felt the urge To find God
Present in everything we are
I have friends that find that truth a little bit bizarre
I don't agree but I don't even sort of try to blame them
Institutionalization has always tried to tame Them
Sometimes I get tired of the religious leaders
Eating off the people's back while claiming that we sinners
Not saying every single one of them is like a dealer
Selling hope to people but this
Country makes it seem as
Even with good intentions things will fall apart
So instead of people I'd rather find someone to keep at heart
Only problem is the internet sold ideas about love being a trap
So even when you love me
You gon tell me we ain't got the spark
I could swear I'm happy for those who have someone they excite at least
Cause I'm edgey as Americans searching for love on a friend list
Trading loneliness for lies from hungry Nigerians that catfish
Rather be and have peace

Written by:
oluwafemi akinwumi

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