J.R What - The Pursuit of Happiness

Honestly fam I must be tapped
Never known where my head at I lost it a time ago
Always had a screw loose despite being a cool dude
I feel I'm boiling over will I blow my lid I don't know
The temptation real though
And I don't get why ca my life ain't that bad
For me to have these thoughts but mind won't grasp that
It's sad that I recognize it and won't fight it
I'm frightened I'm inspiring my nightmares the worst of me
To take charge of destiny alter my reality
Potentially it's to late and I sold myself a dream
Or maybe I'm living it guess in time we'll see
But until then I'll continue bleeding
Fighting off these demons this self inflicted treason
That I got to overcome but I just don't see it
Ahh hear we go again man the cycle keeps repeating
I wish I knew where I'm heading
Right now man I don't have a vision
Thought I did but lack the commitment
Lack the belief to spawn its existence
They say what you reap is what you sow
Why I choose to procrastinate I don't know
Successfully sealing my fate forever more
When your potential real could you live with knowing that you should of endured
Man what is your problem why is it so difficult
Are you a sucker for pain can't you see how you're treating yourself
You're falling apart you're better then this what makes it worse you know it
Why won't you pick yourself up get your head out this ditch and just go for it
Why can't you just love yourself just love yourself
Can't you see your bugging man your bugging man
Why can't you just love yourself just love yourself
Can't you see your bugging man your bugging
Feeling like a fish out of water after it's been battered
When I think about society and my position in it
I Question my ambition or the lack of in this instance
How it's influenced my intuition distorting most my decisions
Got me wishing repeatedly on a star needlessly
Knowing only I can carve a path for my dreams
To blossom and flourish but I'm feeling malnourished
Like I have no aspirations I can't seem to focus
And that's a big problem I know needs addressing
All this time wasting like my journey never ending
Like life won't divorce me it's so fucked up
These thoughts deprive of sleep you think I'd pattern up
I Should of had enough but na apparently not
Must love being tired why I'm stuck In this rut
Why I'm stuck In this rut
Least that's the only conclusion I can some what strum up
I wish I knew where I'm heading
Right now man I don't have a vision
Thought I did but lack the commitment
Lack the belief to spawn its existence
They say what you reap is what you sow
Why I choose to procrastinate I don't know
Successfully sealing my fate forever more
When your potential real could you live with knowing that you should of endured
Man what is your problem why is it so difficult
Are you a sucker for pain can't you see how you're treating yourself
You're falling apart you're better then this what makes it worse you know it
Why won't you pick yourself up get your head out this ditch and just go for it
Why can't you just love yourself just love yourself
Can't you see your bugging man your bugging man
Why can't you just love yourself just love yourself
Can't you see your bugging man your bugging
Time wasting suicidal yet I love tempting Fate
Have you deepsed it like that and continued to waste away
I have in fact I am I ain't proud of myself
Man I'm mad might as well mass murder a little more
Making sure my future dimmer than a convict on death row
I often ponder is this all I'm really meant for
To have backwards mindset ignoring my potential
Wondering if music what my heart really beats for
And if not I fear I'm fucked cos honestly there isn't much
In this world that gets me off
Cos honestly there isn't much In this world that gets me off
I'm scared that I'll never bust
Even if I mash out a body of immaculate work
It may not be enough
Even if I mash out a body of immaculate work
It may not be enough

Written by:
Juaquin Ricardo-Drayton

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