love, Nthn - halfway

I'm speaking lies to myself
Fucking up my mental health
Got all these orange bottles staring at me from the shelf
I'm halfway across the country
I'm staring at the ceiling feeling so fucking lonely
I'm halfway across the country
The same four walls are what always surround me
I'm halfway across the country
I hardly feel emotion cuz this darkness around me
I'm halfway across the country
And I'm so fucking sorry

You don't know what I'm thinking, no you don't know the fucking thoughts I have
Been thinking, fucking thinking that I'd prolly just be better dead
Head halfway to the ceiling getting higher than I ever been
I'm singing to my demons cuz they prolly know me better than
You
You can't carry this weight
No you don't care enough to stay
I've been sippin, drinkin, poppin just to numb all of my pain
I've been screaming, I'm exhausted I been fucking up my brain
All I hear is talkin, but your actions never change
No No

I'm speaking lies to myself
Fucking up my mental health
Got all these orange bottles staring at me from the shelf
I'm halfway across the country
I'm staring at the ceiling feeling so fucking lonely
I'm halfway across the country
The same four walls are what always surround me
I'm halfway across the country
I hardly feel emotion cuz this darkness around me
I'm halfway across the country
And I'm so fucking sorry

Don't lie to me and tell me it's okay
Cuz you don't know the thoughts inside my brain
Don't lie to me and tell me it's okay
Cuz you don't know the thoughts inside my brain
Don't try to fucking lie to me and tell me it's okay
Cuz you won't ever know me or what's fucking up my brain
You try to fucking lie to me and tell me it's okay
But you don't fucking know me or what's fucking up my brain
Don't tell me you love me, cuz I heard that shit before
I'll take a hundred pills while you're slamming on the door
Don't tell me that you care you never said that shit before
Don't tell me I'll get better when you hurt me to the core

I'm halfway across the country
I'm staring at the ceiling feeling so fucking lonely
I'm halfway across the country
The same four walls are what always surround me
I'm halfway across the country
I hardly feel emotion cuz this darkness around me
I'm halfway across the country
And I'm so fucking sorry

Written by:
Nathan Sheviak

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