Joverse The Eternal Poet - Apologies

Uh
What a time

First off I gotta say this, girl it's not you it's me
I've been drowning in my thoughts, kinda find hard to breathe

I've been going through this hell hoping you'd find a heaven in me
But it seems all I do is give you more & more misery
Sad to say it but I can't debate it, tryna make sense of it but I'm so conflicted
& I'm tired of this, tryna climb out but I'm stuck in a pit & I'm dragging you with, I can't take more of this
You suffer for this while I'm looking for bliss
Only then do I see it's your calm that's amiss, the one thing I missed
Broken so many promises & by doing that I hurt you
They told me love is war, sadly I made that true
Now I'm white flag waving hoping you see my truce
'Cause if I'll be honest girl you're my only troop
I can't keep fighting & fighting knowin' I'm losing this battle
I can't expect you to hold me knowing I'm so tough to handle
Tryna heal all the damage I caused, I know it's improbable
But if you can still feel me I know that anything's possible
Anything's possible

Apologies, apologies for all my indiscrepencies
Would you stay if I told you that I'm fixing these
Anomalies, anomalies I call them my impurities
Would you stay if I told you I could break free
Apologies, apologies, for all my indiscrepencies
Would you stay if I told you I could
Apologies, apologies I call them my anomolies
Would you stay if I told you I could break free

Tell me what you want from me, tell me what I gotta do
Show me what you see in me, show me what I've gotta prove
Girl I'll do it all no second guessing you're the one
I just hope I get it sorted before you say that you're done
Leaving you would be my suicide, girl I'm too strung
I ain't tryna lose the best part of what I could become
I know loving me's not easy, I'm a problem at best
It seems your patience & devotion is all I ever test
Been tryna clean up my act but sadly I'm still a mess
I'm tryna get to the bottom of it but lacking the depth
I hope you can swim good 'cause I'm drowning in this ocean
Swinging like a pendulum, hope you go with me through these motions
Can't keep fighting & fighting
I'm just losing this battle
Can't expect you to hold me knowing I'm so tough to handle
Tryna heal all the damage I caused, I know it's improbable
But if you can still love me I know that anything's possible

Written by:
Ndumiso Shabangu

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